It's Hard To Be Simple

2011-11-19T21:04:00.001+08:00

如果这个故事没有结局，至少它让你变成了更好的一个人。而我，又上了宝贵的一课。

2010-12-10T22:48:00.003+08:00

越听越有意思的好歌。

超级玛丽--田馥甄

有只叫玛丽玛丽玛丽的蚂蚁
爱上马路对面的查理
可惜查理查理查理是只猫
天天在想河里的鱼

只是一条马路的距离
可怜玛丽走不过去
眺望着查理缩在谁怀里吃鱼

马路上每一辆车各奔东西
每一个人匆匆走到哪里
有没有目的要不要目的
就像蚂蚁玛丽

有天玛丽玛丽玛丽有点急
看见查理又搬来新邻居
名叫茉莉茉莉茉莉多好听
都让查理忘了吃鱼

原来一条马路的距离
有时真的走不过去
可一旦走过去查理还美不美丽

马路上的日升又日落人来又人往
玛丽抬起头 (才发现到处都是风景)

日升又日落人来又人往玛丽偶尔抬起头
才发现用心欣赏到处都能看到好风景

玛丽玛丽玛丽很开心
沿着马路继续走下去
遇上的哈利安迪波比都有趣
也让自己变得狠有趣

其实一条马路的距离
有时真的不用过去
再美的风景看在眼里
也可以好好放进心里

日升又日落人来又人往
玛丽偶尔抬起头看看自己
在别人的眼里自己
自己也许也是风景

其实一条马路的距离
有时真的不用过去
再美的风景总会离开眼睛

2010-12-07T12:04:00.001+08:00

在这个人口爆增的世界人们却活的越来越孤单。

2010-06-07T20:58:00.002+08:00

《罗生门之男人与猫》

今天在公园看到一个背影很像我爸的男人，旁边还跟了平时很粘他的那只猫咪。马上下意识的想到猫咪可能也把男人认错成我爸了，所以才会跟着他。

正当我从他身边经过时，男人俯身弯腰开始喂猫。

恍然大悟。

原来猫咪可能一直把我爸错当成喂它的男人，才会每天粘着他不放。

事情果然不能只看一面。

2010-06-06T23:15:00.004+08:00

我知道你只想听我说一句你想听的话

对不起。我真的做不到。

Because you said im your best friend.

Girl, when can u ever wake up

without me setting your alarm clock ?

2010-06-04T23:58:00.002+08:00

每一天都不同-- 郭静
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最讨厌要下不下的雨
可惜未来总是扑朔迷离
如果摔得越痛才越会飞行
快把我丢向最高的天空里
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不喜欢别人说我幸运
他们不懂我有多么努力
虽然冲动永远比坚持容易
宝贵的东西都需要很费心
==
碰到的事每一天都不同
有的给我眼泪有的给我笑容
终于会珍惜花开不怕花落
走过的曲折就全变成彩虹
=
遇见的人每一天都不同
偶尔失去什么偶尔学到什么
慢慢能翻越沙丘走出日落
每一天的我要比昨天辽阔
=
连我都不相信自己的时候
只有你一直相信我
此刻我什么也不想说
因为拥抱能表达得更多

2010-05-29T22:45:00.002+08:00

"我不想伤害你，你是一个好人"

其实是更伤人的话吧。

2010-04-10T11:08:00.003+08:00

今年的生日过得比去年还开心！！！

好多好多的惊喜呀 =D

^________^

2010-03-25T23:27:00.004+08:00

去年在这里许了一个愿望, 结果竟然成真了。

所以我决定再许一个。

希望所有关心我的人，

在今年的那一天都可以做一件让自己开心的事。

应该不难吧。

多写卡片给我吧！

=]

2010-03-25T23:08:00.003+08:00

每天我都躺在同样的地方

看着同样的一片星空

星星总是不一样

我知道地球动了。

2010-03-08T00:06:00.002+08:00

关于感情。

感情的事总是曲折离奇的。很妙。

距离的远近和态度的冷热并不能代表感情。对一个人特别重视，或特别靠近，或特别冷漠，或特别疏远。这些都可以代表感情。所以都不能代表感情。
但是有一样东西不会变，那就是差别。
对一个意义不一样的人，一定不会一样。

有人花了一辈子的时间去存钱买一样东西，但到了终于存到钱的时候，却不想买了。人追求的只是追求的过程。但过程之所以叫过程就是也会有结束的一天。每一条跑道都会有终点线。

为了自己心仪的人改变自己，为了心仪自己的人不改变自己。就和爱与被爱一样简单。所以都很难。爱本身没有是非对错，更没有难过快乐。是送出去的人，和接收的人为它加上的多余解释让它变得复杂不可捉摸。

愛和爱的差别只是一颗心而已。

2010-03-01T00:31:00.002+08:00

每个人的心中都有一个小孩

差别在于

这个小孩会不会有长大的一天？

2010-03-01T00:23:00.002+08:00

我不喜欢这个部落格的排版方式

它让我找不到我想找的篇章。

我喜欢这个部落格的排版方式

它让我找不到我不想找的篇章。

2010-02-17T22:29:00.002+08:00

一个没有吃过糖果的小孩是不会知道怎么要糖的。

但当你成为给他第一颗糖的人

他一辈子都不会忘记你

和那糖果的滋味。

2010-01-31T00:39:00.002+08:00

计划永远赶不上变化。

当我努力的去追寻自己的梦想，又有什么资格去阻止你去追求你的。
尽管选择那里的原因有一半和你有关。
尽管曾经盼望那会是一连串失败计划后的转捩点。

难过之后剩下的只是无奈
悲伤之后希望是释怀

还有我依然如故的祝福

心之所向。

2010-01-30T23:43:00.003+08:00

以前觉得不懂装懂的人很可恶。

现在觉得懂装不懂的人更可怕。

爱与被爱伤害与被伤害往往只在一念之间。

2010-01-07T21:25:00.004+08:00

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" Let me tell you what happens when you cook down the syrup of loss over the open fire of sorrow: It solidifies into something else. Not grief, like you'd expect, or even regret. No, it gets thick as paste, black as ash; yet it isn't until you dip a finger in and feel that sharp taste dissolving on your tongue that you realize this is anger in its purest form, unrefined; a substance to be weighed and measured and spread."

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-- Vanishing Acts Jodi Picoult

2009-12-22T22:31:00.002+08:00

圣诞的脚步声又近了!

连跑了三间书店和书展都找不到符合主题又有意境的卡片，最后还是决定回归老本行，自己动手做。生日卡片已经数不过来但圣诞卡片好像还是第一次。构思还是一如往常的难。在不变中求万变，万变中求统一。这种自我挑战就是不断激发我的创意和灵感的来源。

这次总共寄出了八张卡片。有些人可能觉得很意外，有些人可能一点都不意外。收到的人，你是特别的，至少对我而言。没收到的，那是因为我在用别的方式祝福着你。

希望大家都会度过一个充满爱和温暖的圣诞节。

寄给我卡片的人，谢谢。

2009-12-14T22:23:00.002+08:00

i started a joke- BeeGees

i started a joke
which started the whole world crying
but i didn't see that the joke was on me
oh no i started to cry
which started the whole world laughing
oh if i'd only seen that the joke was on me

and i looked at the skies
running my hands
over my eyes
and i fell out of bed
hurting my head
for things that i've said

till i finally died
which started the whole world living
oh if i'd only seen that the joke was on me
the joke was on me

2009-11-06T23:59:00.006+08:00

Disclaimer: 不想看到悲伤沉重难过失落等字眼的人就到此为止吧。

关于寂寞。

寂寞和人数多寡没有关系。一群人在一起的时候也可能觉得孤单，一个人的时候也可以不寂寞。

我承认。我的内心是极度的寂寞。极度得让我觉得可怕。原因可能有很多。可能是没有兄弟姐妹，可能是七岁的时候就被迫离开熟悉的环境，可能是连续十四年过了没有亲戚的新年，可能是被狠狠的排斥过，可能是双亲由始至终都在全职工作着。身边重要的人成为重要的人之后不是离开了就是快要离开了。没有一个原因是特别的，因为每个人至少都会经历过其中的一两个。但是所有的因素加起来的后果到底是什么。

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友人说，看我平常一副嘻嘻哈哈乐天派的样子，没想到部落格会是这么的沉重。文字本来就是我用来发泄的工具，没有必要为了吸引任何人而去包装点缀它。要简单很难。人都是复杂的。这本来就是这个部落格的宗旨和主题，只是很多人只顾着看内容而遗忘了。但这并不代表任何一个我不是我。不表示在别人面前的我就是伪装压抑的，也不表示文字里的我才是我。人是多面的。人群中的我就是活泼聒噪的，文字中的我就是沉静含蓄的。但是两个都是真实的真正的我。如果硬要挑出不一样的地方，那就只是一个人的我想得比较多，比较深而已。因为除了想，我找不到任何足以填满空间和空虚的东西。就像小学的我偷偷趁妈妈还没下班的空挡拼命看电视一样。我知道我并不是真的想看节目。是那寻求刺激的背后，无边的寂寞。

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没有人能够习惯寂寞。如果有，那也只是麻木而以。友人要我去唱歌的时候别再唱悲情歌了。说是听了让人很难过。但是因为难过而唱悲伤的歌，和因为唱悲伤的歌而难过是不一样的。我因寂寞而唱悲歌，友人因悲歌而难过。我的寂寞是根深蒂固的，不会因为唱悲伤的歌就不快乐，也不会因为唱快乐的歌就不悲伤。歌词和文字一样，都只是发泄的工具而已。歌词本来就是文字。但是我也没有唱下去了。

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很多人都说希望我快乐，却也没有告诉我要如何才能达到这一点。事实上，我也没有很不快乐。看过我的文字的人可能多少有错觉觉得我不快乐，但那是因为我只有在不快乐的时候才会用文字来表达，才会写得比较多。那些没有文字的日子，并不是一样带着文字里的心情在度过的。所以我也并不经常更新我的部落格。愿意一而再的浏览我的文字的人应该会越来越少。但我也不会因为这样而改变写作的风格和频率。可能有一天我会突然关闭这个小小的空间。可能我会删除留言板。但我还是我。不过那些曾经在留言板上留下字迹的人，确实让我感激感动过。虽然真的很少很少。

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一个人的成长过程决定他的性格和心灵。每个人从出生的那一刻起都需要肢体接触。我想被碰触。我想被拥抱。我想要一个真真实实，很温暖很真诚很宽容很疼惜的拥抱。而不是简讯里的照片中的触碰不到的文字鼓励和拥抱。因为我很寂寞。很多人愿意用文字和言语鼓励我，却从来没有给过我一个拥抱。他们并没有错，因为那些鼓励依然是真心真诚的。但是我的拥抱从来没有吝啬过。所有和我称得上朋友的人，都至少得到过一个我的拥抱。真正记得的人有几个呢。简单又很难。就像这个部落格里的文字一样。我会一直在你身边这样的话听起来让人感动，但也让我感到更加的寂寞。那些真正看过我的眼泪的人，都成了我身边很重要的一部分。他们很奇妙的都有一个共同点，总是毫不犹豫的给了我一个又一个的拥抱。然而，这些重要的部分已经慢慢的，一点一滴的开始从我的身边流失了。

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没有人能够告诉我怎样才能不寂寞。因为我的寂寞埋藏在内心深处。精神和心灵的寂寞不会因为多交了几个朋友，多找了几个伴侣而改变。它是根深蒂固的。如果有什么能做的，那就是学会和它并存的道理吧。

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我并不是天生爱寂寞却比任何人都多

就算把世界给我我还是一无所有

2009-10-17T20:45:00.004+08:00

"Different types of Hugs" (From the illustrated guide to Free Hugs)

The A-Frame Hug
occurs when two people stand at a fixed distance, lean their heads in towards each other and wrap their arms around each other’s shoulders. The two bodies do not come into contact, except for heads on each others’ shoulders and hands on each others’ backs. It’s a great way of getting to know someone without overstepping their personal boundaries

Photo Opportunity Hug
is for the world to see. It occurs when the hugger and huggee stand side by with their arms around each other and smile for a camera or any other audience. There’s a personal bond there that doesn’t need a camera or an audience to re-affirm how special this hug is.

The Cuddle
requires a complete absence of space between the two huggers, bodies pressed together with their arms thrown right around each other. A cuddle is a firm yet forgiving hug and is a physical manifestation of love between people. A Cuddler is someone who makes you feel comfortable.

The Man Hug
is a fusion of a handshake and a hug. It opens with a handshake as the huggers lean towards each other. With their free hand they pat each other on the back vigorously, before separating quickly. Nothing says brotherly love like a Man Hug.

The Lift and Spin Hug
is an advanced hug, not for the beginner or the faint of heart. The hugger lifts the huggee off the ground and spins them around, twirling them in a circle before returning the huggee to the ground. Think of it as the merry-go-round of hugs! The Lift and Spin Hug is a memory maker.

The Koala or Side On Hug
looks a lot like a Koala clinging to a tree. One hugger stands side on to the other, their shoulder resting against the chest of the person hugging them, so their bodies form a ‘T’ shape. A Koala Hugger always wants to share themselves with you.

The Surprise Hug
can be given to anybody with their back turned, whether they're sitting, standing or kneeling. People who give this hug are looking to affectionately surprise somebody or to show their appreciation for somebody, without recognition, without invitation and without excuse.

At Arms Length Hug
huggers hold each other’s arms at the elbows while smiling into each other’s eyes. This is an excellent way to maintain a close level of contact with somebody after hugging them, while continuing a conversation. An At Arms' Length Hugger doesn’t want you to leave.

The Group Hug
is a life affirming experience. Think of a riot. Now imagine the happy alternative, a group of people piled together, with arms around each other and laughter in the air. A Group Hug is a free form, free for all, hug for three people or more. The more the merrier! A Group Hug leaves you feeling like a part of something amazing, with the knowledge that you’re surrounded by some awesome people.

The Bear Hug
involves the hugger grabbing the huggee around the arms and squeezing them as tightly as possible. Sometimes, the enthusiasm of the bear hugger can lift the huggee right off the ground! A Bear Hug can be one of the most comforting hugs of all. It tells you that the person hugging you can keep you safe and watch over you.A Bear Hugger is a protector.

The Arm Hug
one hugger latches onto the arm of another person, hugging their arm instead of the whole body. The Arm Hug is most commonly used by children or partners in an effort to get their parents' or partner’s attention as a method of sharing something the hugger has found interesting. People will also use this type of hug in an attempt to keep up with their partner. An Arm Hugger will follow in your footsteps.

Theres no better way to understand the importance of hugs than to be deprived of them.

Can i have mine today?

2009-09-19T10:42:00.002+08:00

"嫌恶的讪笑和朋友间的嘲笑，是完全不同的。说得更清楚一点，“那个家伙真恶心耶”跟“你真恶心耶”，意义迥然不同。能在当事人面前将他当笨蛋，一定要有相当程度的交情才做得到，而且讪笑之中完全不带有伤害对方的意思"

-- 《改造野猪》

2009-08-30T10:25:00.003+08:00

如果你从来没看过五月天的演唱会

而且一生只想看一次

那你一定要去

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爽!!!

2009-08-25T23:26:00.003+08:00

已经好久没有做梦的我，最近竟然一连做了好几个晚上的梦。

具体的梦境已经不记得了，好像是关于同一件事，同样的人，但每个梦都很难过。

记忆中有好几次在梦中都哭得很惨，而且已经分不清是在梦里还是现实中真的在流眼泪。

听说如果在睡梦中真的流下眼泪，那表示真的伤得很深。

只记得每次醒来后，都觉得好累，好累。

怎么能够连睡觉都这么累。

像我这样时常把微笑挂在嘴上的人，其实很少流眼泪。真正看过我这一面的人也很少，但看过的，都成为了我生命中很重要的人。

当我真的流泪的时候，那就表示，

我是真的受伤了。

果然，越想忘掉的，越会在记忆里挥之不去。

2009-08-23T00:50:00.002+08:00

前几天走去CFA的途中偶然转过头去，不经意的看到在我后面鬼鬼祟祟想要突袭我的XY。她一脸失望的样子，因为没吓成我。当时我并没有说“哈哈你很无聊耶”，也没有说“被我发现了吧”，而是反射性的马上转过去说“我什么也没看见，我什么也没看见”。接着她又重复了一次本来打算做的事情。然后成功了。

这也是体贴的一部分吗？

2009-08-17T21:49:00.003+08:00

范玮琪- 灰色的彩虹

2009-08-07T12:13:00.004+08:00

Was talking to xiaoyuan on wednesday after work at 1145pm, when we brought up the topic about weddings. Maybe it was because of the things i have been going through lately, maybe it was because of the night breeze, maybe it was because of nothing. Just because.

Anyway, my "dream" wedding will be something like this:

I wanna hold a wedding which is very very casual and relaxing, on a beach or somewhere by the sea. Nothing special or extraodinary up to now, but here comes the exciting part: I want everyone to come in Beach Wear, guys in beach shorts and gals in...bikinis?? Hahas anyway anything related to beach or the sea will do, but STRICTLY no gowns or suits or any elegant stuff, they will be gone in the waters anyway. That means i have to send out the invitations at least a few months in advance to allow time for any kind of gym-training or weight-losing projects. Lol.

For the dinner, instead of the 8-10 course meals, i would have something like a bbq party. For convenience sake probably hiring a chef to do the bbqing would be good. Kebabs and pita bread sound good, plus a spread of seafood and lots of fruits. I would probably spend quite some time on the menu part, and choice of champagnes and wines. Maybe a cocktail bar as well.

At night, we will all dance under the stars (if theres any) and crap in the night breeze.

Would prefer to hold the wedding on an sunny island away from Spore, but it cant be too far away as well since nobody will come because of the air tix or ship fares, unless im a zillionare by then. I would love to go to Guam, but Phuket or some island in/near Thailand will be good as well.

Havent really thought of the wedding dress yet, but i would prefer something simple and easy to take on and off, with matching beach wear inside. Something similar for the groom as well, hopefully. Theres no reason why you dont go into the waters if the wedding is held by the sea!

I wonder why the wedding cake must be a "cake"? Not sure if that is a tradition or not, but i dont mind a multi layered apple pie or a pyramid stacked with sundaes or cream brulee. As long as it taste nice =)

Of course a wedding is not as easy as that, because it is a WEDDING, and my plan will probably not stay the same if im getting married at 30 plus or 40, compared to 20 plus. Well, who knows what will happen.

人活着一定要有梦想，就算不能实现也没关系。因为那毕竟只是个梦。

2009-08-03T01:30:00.002+08:00

《明白》郭静

"你看著我来
我看著你走
生命有太多分分合合
难免要承受的痛
你看著我来
我看著你走
就算捂住耳朵
我还能听见你呼吸的温柔
就算我会心痛
你的好永远都填满我心中"

《心墙》郭静

一个人　眺望碧海和蓝天　
在心里面　那抹灰就淡一些
海豚从眼前飞越　我看见了最阳光的笑脸
好时光都该被宝贝　
因为有限

我学着不去担心得太远　
不计画太多　反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天　快乐地看每一天　
第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解　
我感觉我懂你的特别

你的心有一道墙　
但我发现一扇窗　
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙　
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放　
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳

2009-08-03T00:54:00.002+08:00

开始和结束来自同一个拥抱
我的心里下了一场雨
你却还是笑着说
一切都会过去的

天使终究属于天堂
而我还留在现实中
承受着
人类的孤单
人类的寂寞
人类的猜疑
人类的脆弱

不想让你洁白的翅膀
沾染上我泪水的污渍
不想再让你的光环
照亮我的黑暗

很痛
但还在跳动

我想让这一刻变成永远
所以我说了

再见

In every loss, in every lie, in every truth that you'd deny and each regret and each goodbye, was a mistake too great to hide.

2009-07-21T23:27:00.005+08:00

(While bathing today, i suddenly thought of composing a song for my beloved 05S73, and i really did!! This is the first time i tried to write a song by myself, both 词and曲, though the melody part is still under construction. Hope whoever reading this will like it, esp my 73 pals ^___^ )

编号05S73

词：Ahjiao
曲：Ahjiao

就这样又过了三年
不知不觉好像发生在昨天
有你的问候灿烂的笑脸
再一次翻开记忆中的画面

说再见毕业的那天
你到了海角而我还在天边
时间和距离不得不改变
文字和邮票是共同的语言

*这样的73 这样的黄城这样的中秋节
这样的欢声这样的笑语这样的精神永不灭

圣诞节倒数和新年
山上微风夹杂着海水的咸
凌晨两点半飙歌的房间
我们经历过的那些苦与甜

旧照片滴滴和点点
写不完的故事一篇又一篇
流失的时间现实的考验
只要在一起又回到了从前

*这样的73 这样的黄城这样的中秋节
这样的欢声这样的笑语这样的精神永不灭
*这样的73 这样的黄城这样的中秋节
这样的欢声这样的笑语这样的精神永不灭

只要在一起又回到了从前

2009-07-18T00:49:00.002+08:00

再见了，

我的守护天使......

2009-07-18T00:10:00.002+08:00

While working at Venezia, i encountered a lot of customers asking stuff like "What goes well with macademia nuts icecream?" and problems associated with choosing suitable flavours for 2 or 3 flavoured cups. Personally i feel that whether or not one flavour goes well with another is very objective, and it really depends on your own taste buds.

Nevertheless this has aroused my curiosity on "designing" and "mix-and-matching" different flavours of icecreams and assigning different themes to each. Below is some combinations that i have thought of, STRICTLY FROM MY PERSONAL POINT OF VIEW, so dont go to the Venezia shops asking for "Jealousy" or stuff like that!! But of course you can try and see if it feels the same for you =P

Theme and Combinations (2-flavour cup)

"Above 21" -Tiramisu and Rum & Raisin (Both has acohol inside)

"Jealousy" - Passion fruit and Rasberry (Both are very SOUR)

"Italian Love" - Tiramisu and Italian Coffee

"Route 66" - Crunchy Nut and Chocolate Chip (Americans like these 2 flavours)

"Exotic Life" - Mango and Coconut (Both are exotic fruits)

"Doctors Away" - Yoggi and Green Tea with Red Bean (Quite healthy)

"Butterfly" - Butterscotch and Biscotti (Both have butter and caramel base)

"Say Cheese" - Tiramisu and Forest Berries (Both have mascarpone cheese)

"What is That" - Cassata and Tartufo (One is Ricotta cheese plus dried fruits and another is chocolate and hazelnut)

"Unforgettable" -Durian and Dark Chocolate (Both are very rich and distinct)

"Refresh" - Mint chocolate and Lemon (Both are refreshing of course!)

"Childhood" -Belgium Chocolate and Strawberry (Ordinary but Classics!!)

"Ever Popular" -Cookies & Cream and Macademia Nut (Both Hot-selling!)

"Black and White" -Belgium Chocolate and Vanilla

2009-07-15T12:28:00.005+08:00

Two months since the last time i updated!!!

Have been working at venezia icecream lately, running to and from Bugis and Six Avenue at Bukit Timah. Part time actually, but not quite either. The hours vary a lot and quite confusing sometimes. This week im working on Mon Tue Wed Thur Sun and for 12hr, 5.5hr, 7hr, 12hr and 6hr respectively. Basically when they need you, you have to turn up. Work is quite different at Bugis and at Guthrie (Six Avenue). The shop at Bugis is quite small and they only have icecream, waffles and drinks, while the one at Guthrie has more complicated stuff like pasta and quiche etc. So mainly washing and serving at Guthrie and scooping at Bugis. Work is tiring but enjoyable coz you get to meet so many different customers everyday and alot of interesting things happen.

I have recorded my top 5 funny encounters (to me lah) and wonder how others will feel if they encounter the same people.

Top #5:

"Can i have a cup of Rum and Raisins icecream? WITHOUT THE RAISINS please" or "Can i have a cup of Green tea and Red bean icecream WITHOUT THE RED BEANS?" (P.S i had a really hard time digging!!!)

Top #4:

"Can i have another spoon please? A PINK ONE." (Said by a women in her 30s.)

Top #3:

"Do you have the EXACT ingredients list to each and every ice cream? I want to know what kind of EMULSIFIERS is used." (Ok la this is not very funny, but irritating.)

Top #2:

Said by a caucasian man after making a medium green tea red bean ice cream for him: "Can you do me a favour and help me put this in the MICROWAVE for 10sec? " "You have to watch it carefully." "Dont worry, this is not CANDID CAMERA." (LOL!!!!)

Top #1:

Said by a man in his 50's but looking very normal and after looking at the row of gelato ice creams: "这里有没有莲藕(Do you have LOTUS here??) " (When he said this i was really like: What the Hell?????)

Now you know why i like to work here. LOL.

2009-05-14T18:42:00.004+08:00

(continue from last entry..)

Day 5:

Took the earliest train possible to Kyoto, about 40min. We bought the city bus one-day pass as there is only one single subway line in kyoto, which goes everywhere but the important places we wanna visit. Arrived at Kyomitsutera shrine 清水寺, one of the best known shrines in Kyoto, if not in the whole of Japan. There is this nice little walkway leading to the temple with traditional Kyoto shops selling okashi (japanese sweets) and souvenirs. There were some youngsters wearing kimonos, even the guys, and they look really cute!! The shrine was located on a hill, with different sub sections and the entire building was constructed solely using wood. Not a single nail or metal piece was used in the process. Too bad we chose a sunday, and in the golden week somemore, and we had a really hard time squeezing through the people.

After that we moved on to Higashi hongganji (东本愿寺) and nishi hongganji (西本愿寺), and there were much lesser people. Maybe these two shrines were less famous, but nevertheless still over a hundred years old. Lastly we took two buses to the second most famous temple in Kyoto, 金阁寺 (I forgot the Jap name for that). Basically the name came from the golden temple in the middle of the small lake, and apparently no one is allowed to go up the temple or else all the gold would be gone by now =p

Took a 1hr bus to Kyoto station and back to Osaka, before going to one of the outlets for some shopping. Managed to grap a nice jacket for 1050 yen, abt S$15. We found a really nice 24hr minimart near the hotel, where we settled most of our dinner. The bentos there are sold at half price once past 9pm, and just like what i have read in a book, a lot of Japanese will loitter around in the mart close to 9pm and follow the "sticker obasan" who goes around pasting half price stickers on the bentos. Had omelete rice for dinner =)

Day 6:

Went to Rinku Town premium outlets for more shopping early in the morning, as we are departig for Tokyo in the afternoon. It was really big, and resonably cheap. But still a bit expensive compared to the premium outlet in Vegas. Most of the local Jap brands are cheaper than those imported. Managed to grab a pair of Le Cock De Sportif sneakers and some more clothes. There were close to 180 shops in the outlet, and most of the stuff are 20-40% cheaper than retails.

We left at about 4pm with loads and loads of stuff and took the shinkansen again back to Tokyo. Shinkansen is no doubt the fastest mode of transport in Japan, but also the most expensive. A 2.5hr ride to Tokyo from Osaka cost about 15000 yen, which is about S$225. I think most of our money was spent on transport. But still, free and easy tour gave us a chance to try out ALL the different modes of transport in Japan.

Day 7:

Visited the Grand Palace gardens early in the morning, which was just below our new hotel. A pretty nice place i would say. Spent about 2hr walking around before moving to the 2nd most famous shrine in Japan, Asakusa Shrine 浅草寺. Just outside the Asakusa station you can see a row of shop houses lined with white paper lanterns and black words. There is also a narrow street leading to the shrine similar to that of Kyomitsutera shrine. The most prominent logo of Asakusa shrine is the gigantic red lantern with the words 雷门 written on it, weighing close to 200 tons. Managed to grab some souvenirs along the streets before setting off to the next station.

Took the subway for the nth time (we bought the one-day pass, finally) to Ginza, which is supposed to be the 'Orchard Road' in Japan. We went to the largest MUJI in Tokyo (3 storeys) and some other nearby shops before setting our lunch in a ramen shop. It was a typical but good ramen shop in Japan. First you have to select your food from a machine at the entrance and a ticket will be printed out when u pay. Then you are supposed to give the ticket to the chefs, who will in turn pass you a form for you to indicate the softness, saltiness, spicness of the noodles as well as the side dishes. The instruction for filling in of the forms comes in End, Chi and Korean, which was quite user friendly. There is also a cute machine infront of each seat for you to buy extra eggs 温泉蛋. You can put in 50 yen for half an egg and 100 for a full one. The soup is the traditional Jap soya miso kind, a bit salty but very rich. I added more chili to enhance the flavour.

After lunch we moved on to harajuku again for some last minute shopping. The last time i went most of the shops were already closed when we came out of DAISO. To my disappointment it was pouring heavily and i hardly found anything except for a pair of shorts. Shibuya and Harajuku are supposed to be the shopping paradise for youngsters as they are well known for cheap and super trandy clothes. It proved to be true. But after hunting in a few shops you will soon realize that most of the shops are selling similar kinds of clothes, and it it hard to find unique ones. Nevertheless im still able to grab some stuff in the midst of everything.

We left harajuku at 7pm for the nest stop, Odaiba 台场, which was near the Tokyo port. It is quite ulu as most of the subways do not pass there directly and we had to take a private train there. It was quite freezing at night due to the rain, and by the time we reached, the viewing platform for the famoud Rainbow Bridge 彩虹桥 was already closed. For your information, rainbow bridge is not rainbow coloured!! But still it looks bright and nice at night, which reminded me of the 情人桥 at 渔人码头 in tapei =）There was also a ferries wheel in the distance, which was instead rainbow coloured. We settled our dinner at yoshinoya, which proved to be not bad after all. There is even sukiyaki (jap dark sauce steamboat with udon and raw egg as dipping sauce). Yoshiniya is considered quite cheap in Japan, as it is like a fastfood restaurant. Had a hearty meal before going back to our hotel.

Day 8:

Left the hotel early in the morning and took two trains to Narita airport, before bidding goodbye to Japan.

Conclusion:

I certainly didnt expect myself to speak soooo much Jap there, all the way from buying tickets to booking hotels to order food to asking directions. Basically when i speak Eng, most of the Jap people dont really understand what i was saying, and i had to result to using Jap. And once i start to speak Jap, all the people started saying Jap to me, so the cycle continues. But really good practice i would say. I will never have so much chance to practice my Jap if i had gone with a tour agency instead.

Among all, the thing that left the deepest impression in my mind is the attitude of the service industry. All the hotel staff are very polite and greetings is a must each time they see us. When we went shopping, we are supposed to remove our shoes before going into the fitting room, and they even have head covers for the ladies to cover their faces before removing their clothes so as to protect their make up. And after paying for the stuff, they will pack everything nicely and even take your clothes to the entrance of the shop and bow to send you out. All the subway lines have a rule that says mobile phones are prohibited on the trains, so only messaging is allowed. So all the trains are super quiet all the time.

Lastly, it was quite a tiring journey especially for me, as i ended my papers just a day before the trip and i had almost no time to rest till these few days. Everyday is some what hectic as we have to rush to take trains and buses, especially when we are planning all the visits ourselves. I spent a lot of time asking and finding the places, and we have to wake up close to 530am everyday and only return to the hotels close to 11pm. But all in all, it is still a memorable experience for all of us as we really went to a lot of places that tour agencies will never take us to, such as the old hot spring. But i would say that travelling free and easy in Japan is not easy if you have absolutely zero command of Japanese.

Next stop: Hokkaido!

^________^

2009-05-13T23:09:00.003+08:00

For those of you who have been missing me, im currently in china, will be back in singapore by June 14. Havent been updating my blog on the trips coz i was super busy and tired from the 7+3 days japan and shanghai/hangzhou/suzhou trip. It was very fun, but really tiring, coz Japan trip was a free and easy one, and i had to settle a lot of transportation and miscellanous stuff in order to make it a comfortable one for my parents. Very rush, had to wake up at 5plus most of the time to catch trains and buses. Nevertheless, it was really a Learning experience for me as i had plenty of opportunities to practice my Japanese (used it 99% of the time there!!).

Heres a summary of my Japan trip:

Day 1:
Arrived at Narita airport at 930pm (Japan time 1030pm) as the plane was delayed during the transfer at shanghai. It was quite horrible coz i didnt know the airport bus to the nearest metro station ends at 1130pm. The airport was very quite and appreantly all the ticket booths are closes. So i had to ask the airport staff where is the auto ticket station and where the train stop was. That was when i put my Japanese to use as the staff cant understand English at all =X. Then the second challenge came as i didnt know how to use the machine, since everything was written in Jap. To save time, i asked this man beside me for help and managed to get the tickets for the last train. We had to take the Skyliner to Nippori station and transfer to the Yamanote line to Shinjuku station 新宿, where our hotel was. Luckily the hotel was pretty near the station and we managed to check in just past midnight.

Day 2:
Breakfast was included and we were allowed to choose from any of the 3 restaurants in the hotel. Most of them had Jap plus Western style buffet. Western style was all about eggs bacon and bread, while Jap style consists of rice, miso soup and some side dishes. Most of the old Japanese choose Jap food, while the younger generation chose the western stuff. I realized that there are 2 special habits of the Jap people, they always eat scrambled eggs with tomato sauce and yogurt with jam!! After that we boarded the bus to mount fuji, it was a one day tour that i booked online before leaving singapore. Basically it is impossible for a tourist to visit mount fuji on his own without tour groups, coz it was very very far away and secluded. Besides that, transportation is pretty expensive. We were taken to the mount fuji visitor center before arrving at the 5th station of mount fuji. This is the point where most trekkers and hikers start to climb mt fuji, also the highest point that cars can drive up to. It was pretty cold, heard that the previous day the temperature dropped to 0 degrees =X. The air was very fresh and i really like the cooling weather. But mount fuji didnt look like mt fuji from haly way up. Heard that we were lucky coz apparently we managed to see it all the way throughout the trip, normally it will be covered in snow from the bottom.

Following that we had lunch at a restaurant at the bottom of the hill. It was a lunchbox set, but not a bento exactly. There were 16 different kinds of dishes, all in small but delicate servings, arranged nicely in a 16 grid box, together with rice. So pretty that we didnt bear to eat it! After that we took a cruise down Lake Hakone, and took a cablecar up to the top of a hill that i had forgotten. There was a small shrine on the top of the mountain and a Tori gate, this red gate that looks like the word "开". There was almost nothing on the mountain except for the shrine and gate, but somehow i had a feeling of serenity =) Lastly we went back to Tokyo via shinkansen. Not to bluff, it was REALLY FAST!! We wanted to take a picture of the train and before we even pressed the shutter, it went past already!! Floating in the air i will say. It took just 40mins to get to Tokyo. Our tour guide was really good and frendly and told us a lot of stories about Japanese traditions. Such as during weddings, only new notes should be used for the "angbaos" as it symbolises a fresh beginning for the couple, whereas for funerals, only old notes can be used, since new notes symbolises that the person had purposely went to the bank to get the money for the funeral, as if long prepared for it already, which was very rude. Had bentos for dinner, which was not too bad after all =)

Day 3:
The 3rd day was bad then good, as we had originally planned to take a night bus to osaka to cut one night stay in hotels, only to realize that all the buses have been fully booked due to it being the 1st day of the Japan "Golden Week". That left us stranded in Tokyo as we didnt book any hotel for that night, and all the hotels had been booked due to the holidays. Luckily we managed to find a very ulu hotel nearby through the hotel staff. It was pretty scarey as i was asked to explain the situation to the new hotel's staff and book a night there, and i had to use Japanese for the entire conversation!! But really good practice i would say. Luckily the Jap people are super nice and patient, and everything went quite smoothly. So we checked out and in to out new hotel early in the morning.

Went around shinjuku area, which was supposed to be the CBD equavalent in Japan. Most of the shopping centers were places like Isetan and Takashimaya, which of course didnt attract our attention. We proceed to the shinjuku Gyoen National Garden, which had nice little japanese 凉亭s and small pounds. Too bad sakura season was over, but there were other blooming flowers though. Next we went to the so called "red light district" 歌舞伎町for lunch. It was just as crowed during lunch time as night. We found a nice little restaurant for Katsu Teshi (pork cutlet set meal). The katsu was crispy and thick and very jucy!! Together with chewy Japanese rice which really shines in the light!! After lunch we visited the Tokyo Metropolitan govertment office observation tower, where they had a free observation deck at the 45 level. You can see the entire shijuku from there!

Next we took the JR line to Shibuya涉谷, where i did my 1st round of shopping. There was this distinctive mall called 109, i think it was where the term 109辣妹came from. All the shops were very trendy and mostly teenager stuff. Something like Far East, but more trendy. All the gals were sooo kawaii!! Big eyes, fair skin, golden hair, just like those in the comics. Same for the guys!! I think none of them ever stepped into shibuya without hair gels and fake eye lashes. Very 养眼 according to my parents..=P. The clothes are not too expensive, close to those in far east i would say, 20-40 sin dollars, but much more trendy i would say. Bought some clothes there =). It was super crowed at 6pm, hardly had space to walk on the streets. After that we walked to Harajuku 原宿, another shopping paradise for cool guys and ho babes. There was our favourite DAISO where everything went at 105 yen. It was 4 storeys high!! Full of goodies =). Too bad most of the shops closes at 8-9pm and by the time we came out of Daiso, most of the shops had closed already. That was the 1st time i saw Lolita girls, dressed in full pink laces (including shoes!!) and a lacey umbrella, as well as some Cos Play characters. Interesting!! Had bento for dinner again, as we were totally tired from the walking.

Day 4:
Took the earliest shinkansen possible to osaka, it took just 2.5hrs instead of the usual 6. After checking in, we took the osaka subway to Osaka jou (Osaka castle), one of the must-see attractions in osaka. The castle was surrounded by water, and there was a large park beside it. The castle itself was quite normal, like a typical Jap temple, but more grand. There was a tiny shrine beside the main castle where we witnessed a traditional Japanese wedding.

After that we moved on to Osaka Habour, where the Kaiyukan 海游馆 was located. It was said to be the biggest aquarium in the world. Went for Osaka's Okonomiyaki for lunch before queueing for tickets, which proved to be the right decision. We ordered beef, squid and octopus okonomiyaki for lunch, basically there was a hot plate on out table but the food was served cooked. But we were still given utensils to cook the okonomiyaki as we eat. Very nice but a bit salty. I guess that is just the Osaka flavour. Unfortunately we went to the kaiyukan on a saturday, and also the golden week, so we were squised in tons and tons of people and had to queue for a total of 80mins before entering the place. It was indeed very big, about 8 storeys high with a giant cylindrical tank in the middle, where they housed giant stingrays and a WHALE SHARK!! 4metres long i read. Thye had sea creatures from all over the world, and dived according to each continent. Most of the people who went were kids though =P.

After that we went to the next station where there was a nice onsen (hot spring). Actually i didnt know that such a place existed till i read the book that my mum borrowed. I swear that no travel agencies will take their participants to that place, since it was quite hard to find. But it proved that our efforts didnt come to a waste!! It was a public bath which cost mere 400yen, about 6 sin dollars!!! And there was absolutely no compromise on the quality of the hotspring!! Heard that that place was over 100 years old, quite a famous public bath for local Jap. First you have to remove your shoes at the entrance of the shop, where they have free lockers for you to put the shoes. Upon entering the actual shop, it was divided into female and male baths. You have to remove ALL the clothes and store in the lockers, not even a towel!! But anyway everyone was doing that so it wasnt too awkward. Then you can proceed to the bath room, where you are supposed to soap and shower 1st before entering the hot springs. I was totally surprised by the variety of hot springs they had for a public bath!! There was electric wave hot springs, sulphur hot srings, cold water hot springs, open air hot springs(this was really good), and even saunas!! I tried almost all of them, and it was totally comfortable and relaxing. Felt like sleeping for some moments. Spent about 1 hour there, and when we went out of the bath into the locker area we realised there were even underground hot springs that we had missed!! And the room locker room was filled with amenities like hair dryers, massage chairs and even baby cots and tv!! And all these for just S$6!!! It was quite a pleasant experience that leaves us longing for more =) Had Takoyaki (octopus balls) for dinner..Yummy!!!

more to come in the next entry!! =)

2009-04-24T12:50:00.002+08:00

Thanks dear cheeyun and pohjee, i got your postcards already!!!

And to my dearest auntie GG, thanks for your card!!

Love you all people!!! MUACKS <3

慢慢看见黎明的曙光。。。

2009-04-19T00:32:00.002+08:00

我想要的不是一句道歉，是一个解释。一个原因。

这已经不是第一次，也不是第二次。更不是第三次。到底为什么要这样一次又一次的伤害我？
这就是你所谓的对待很重要的朋友的方式吗？每次我受不了发飙的时候你总是静静的等待事情慢慢转淡或者被遗忘掉，却从来没有一次对我解释过你到底是为什么那么做。而我也就每次乖乖的对号入座。我没问但那并不代表我不想知道。我在乎我们之间的感情和经历过的一切，所以我不想重提那些已经过去而且曾经让你很难过的事情。当你雨过天晴，还面带微笑的若无其事的和我开玩笑的时候，你有没有想过我是经过多少忍耐和压抑才能在你面前呈现出那样的平静？

每一次你掉到谷底，我用双手把你拖出来了以后你说完谢谢没几天又选择重新掉入同样的谷底。然后利用我对你的信任把我推进同样的山谷，甚至把我囚禁在那里。这样就算下一次你又跌进去的时候至少还可以踩着我的身体往上爬出去。这就是你。而我竟然就像一个永远学不乖的笨蛋一样，每次都心甘情愿的步入你所设下的一个又一个的陷阱。我总是相信你有自己的原因。一个不能告诉我，但是并不会伤害我的原因。你怎么可以因为觉得被别人背叛，就拿玩弄我对你的信任来出气？每次你受了委屈你怄气你为了逃避那些让你不愉快的事情，就把注意力和情绪堆到我的身上。你知道我很重视我们之间的感情，所以用尽办法想尽各种提议来考验我到底会不会因为在乎这样的感情而去改变我早已规划好的事情和计划。就因为我让你觉得你是重要的。然后呢，当你达成目的以后，每次最后一刻总是重新奔向那个当初让你伤心难过的理由的怀抱。然后丢下一句，对不起。这就是你。

我受伤了。但你还是一样，不会告诉我理由。

我想听到的不是一句抱歉。是一个解释。是一个真正的原因。

我在你的心中，到底是什么？

2009-04-17T22:35:00.005+08:00

Cats and Rum Tum Tugger!!!

2009-04-05T12:10:00.005+08:00

Had a super super memorable bdae party!!! Despite the rain, heat and mosquitoes =P

U people sure rock! And your presents too =D

感动得快要死掉了!!!

Received, on my 21st:

-two cookbooks (one on asian food and Jamie's MOF!! OMG ive been wanting that book since i saw it on Jamie's blog!)

thanks my canyon people, u rock!! muppet and my dearest qingjia!! P.s are the two books supposed to decide the menu for the next party? Hahas =P

-a set of condiments including oregano, pepper, parsley, paprika etc (It comes from one of my "wish-list" blog entry)

thanks orange! Ok la at least that proves u DO read my blog. Hahas! Oh and tell u a secret (actually i just bought a mini set of the condiments last fri..but got backup now =P)

-Two note books (1 cute organizer and 1 for recipe notes, with 73's bdae wishes!)

thanks Shannen! And ningfei, jiankai, muppet, veron, joanne, xiaolee, liqian, shell, james, xuanxuan for your words <3

-A hand-drawn canvas bag with squirrel =D and a crystal ball with 73 photo taken on the 1st day we received our Hwachong uniform!!!

73 ppl!! The bag is so cute!! But i still cant figure out which part was drawn by ningfei, since everything was so nice and pretty..oops..haha =P

-A japanese-english dictionary!!

James did you buy or choose this?? It looks so helpful, and i think i should start cramming its contents before i fly to Japan end of the month..hahas!!

-A stress-free pencil case/wallet (ok la it should be a wallet right? Since it comes from The Wallet shop?)

Joanne!!! OMG i simply love the pencil case!! It's freaky funny and cool !!! Haha im gonna use it right away =)

-A mug with 4 packets of..strawberry milk tea??

Alvin u again!! I wonder how does the tea taste like..hahas. Btw, i really dont mind if you give me the alcohol glass instead..Wahahas =P

-Book from shakespeare with anecdotes

Thank you dear shannen!! This one of the most special gifts that i received <3 hahas ="P

-Jewellery box with hand-made chains and pendant.

Thanks jingwen! My 12 years friend!! Ur skills ar getting better by day, and so is ur dad's. Hahas! The guitar one was super cool! I will put it on when i play my guitar the next time =)

-A pooh bear, a cute monkey, and a fluffy cushion

Thanks Veron!! I wonder what results i will get if i do the winnie quiz on FB. Hahas! And thanks lingtong my dear Stage Manager!! U better do a good job on fri's audition ok!! I wanna see you in the next exco!! And thanks Sun Ye too!! Maybe i will deliver some of the food to you on monday..hahas =)

-Chardonnay white wine and Baileys with coffee!!!

Hahas my dear canyon ppl, u got me!!! Let's have a toast some other day, and have some fun driving ard spore at night!! I miss u guys lots!! Thanks yingying! I havnt seen you since how many years ago??? Shall try to find some ways to make baileys icecream..=D

And..last but not least, a really really REALLY big thank you to Mr and Mrs Lim for the cake!! I was super moved when i saw the cake. It still tastes like what i remember two years ago in the cake shop. Of course credit also goes to ningfei who made the trip all the way down to get it, and your decoration skills sure need some improvement!! Hahas =D Actually i prepared some games after the party, but didnt expect it to end so late..have to save it for the next time!! Or pass to the next bdae girl/boy =P

You people sure rock my world!! I wont forget you for as long as i can remember =D

Thanks again for the fantastic night! Come back next year hor XD

My coming tue is going to be so lonely without u people around..nevertheless, stay healthy and happy always!!!!!!!!

73 with xuanxuan

73 with ningfei and yingying

My Work and Travel aka Canyon people =)

Orange lingtong and xiaoyuan!

2009-03-24T22:57:00.004+08:00

原来最动人的风景，往往出现在无意之中。

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上个星期，在某座大楼的70楼偶然发现了一个看新加坡夜景的好地点。如果不是有人带我去，可能一辈子都要和它擦身而过了。看着那点点灯火，突然间想到我在帝国大厦顶楼看曼哈顿的景象。那些美好的回忆又像泉水一样涌进脑海里。忘不了的到底是那风景，身边的人，还是那感觉？

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星期天去看了朋友的口琴演奏会，结束的时候竟然有种莫名的感动。灯光，音响系统，吊麦克的架子，或许是那大家一起打拼的精神触动了我，让我仿佛又回到了3个月前的时光。不知道为什么，最近只要去看戏，音乐会，甚至是演唱会，总是有一种好感动，眼睛湿湿心中却很温暖的感觉。有些事情可能真的亲身经历过才会懂吧。这些日子在后台的磨练真正让我体会到，要把一场演出做的漂亮，做的完整，做得让人惊艳，真的需要付出一般人想象不到的心血。必须忍耐自己不能忍耐的，承受别人不能承受的，预知别人不能预知的。

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从我接下这个任务的第一天起，我就告诉自己，接下来的3个月里无论遇到什么状况都要看作是已经预料到的，做好心理准备面对的问题。唯有这个样子，我才能让自己在面对问题时，没有任何退缩的余地和理由，也没有逃避的机会。每天我都想尽办法催眠自己，在一堆没完没了的杂事和问题中找寻一点点快乐的源头。我不断提醒自己，就算整个团队倒了，我也必须支撑下去，这就是我的责任和存在的目的。就像我曾经讲过的，我很清楚自己最大的优点和缺点就是责任心。只要是别人委托我的事情我就必须把它做好，但这样的后果是无时无刻的压力和痛苦。到了最后一个月的时候，我几乎已经找不到当初那种对戏剧的热情和快乐。我简直已经变成了一部只会发现问题然后解决问题的机器。我不敢去想自己面对的压力到底有多大。我害怕一旦触碰到那个无助的自己就会再也支持不住。只知道别人受不了的时候去鼓励他，别人想不到办法的时候我就得想，交待别人的事情没做好的时候我得重做，哪里缺人我就要补上去。换句话说什么都不用作但什么都得会做。当我发现自己提出不要对不起只要看到解决方法的请求的时候，我知道，我已经迷失了。

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当然，当一切都结束以后，并不是所有事都会随着时间倒带到最当初的轨道。虽然我从来没有要求任何人对我说句谢谢，更不期待有谁会感激我，但我真的盼望能得到一个鼓励。就算只是一个无声的拥抱，也能说服我，告诉我这一切都是值得的。难道这也是一种奢望吗？我好累。或许一个完整的冬眠才能再次带给我一道温暖的阳光，开启那尘封已久的回忆吧。

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我知道，我再也会不到当初那个纯真的我。因为，一切都变了。

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如果再也不能继续创造美好的回忆，那就让一切都停止吧。

2009-03-15T13:58:00.001+08:00

The Song Game =)

1) Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle mode.
2) For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3) YOU MUST WRITE THE SONG NAME DOWN, NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4) Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
disclaimer: this could be really retarded
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1.Are u male or female?
小亲亲-范玮琪 (well..)

2.Describe yourself.
隐形的翅膀-张韶涵 (soaring towards the unknown =p)

3.What do people feel when they're around you?
唯一色彩-郭富城 (im the only 1 in your eyes!)

4. Describe your current relationship.
礼物-some korean singer (so 空窗is a gift??)

5. Where would you like to be now?
Say you love me-恶作剧之吻原声带 (somewhere filled with love?)

6. How do you feel about love?
别再为他流泪-梁静茹 (dont hurt or be hurt!)

7. What's your life like?
乔克叔叔-周杰伦 (ya i guess im a joker..haa =p)

8. What would you ask if you only had one wish?
天使-五月天 (i need a guardian angel!)

9. If someone says "Is this okay?", what would you say?
我可以-蔡旻佑 (LOL!)

10. How would you describe yourself?
爱情是圆的-林宥嘉

11. What do you like in a guy/girl?
叫-斗牛要不要原声带 (No idea what this means 0.0)

12. How do you feel today?
乐园-张韶涵 (ok im quite happy at the moment)

13. What do your friends think of you?
完美比例-杨丞琳 (lol u sure or not?? maybe the 内涵part XD)

14. What do you think of your parents?
BOOM-SHE (yes they rock =D)

15. What do you think about very often?
碎碎念-罗志祥 (im quite naggy at times =p)

16. What is 2+2?
终结孤单-五月天 (of course!! the more the merrier!)

What do you think of the person you like?
天香-some chinese singer (u smell nice??)

18. What is your life story?
我们-五月天 (definitely not alone!)

19. What do you want to be when you grow up?
听不到-梁静茹 (Hmm..somewhere peaceful and quiet?)

20. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
小雨-不能说的秘密原声带 (short, sweet and refreshing?)

21. What will you dance to during your wedding?
不会爱-终极一家原声带

22. What will they play at your funeral?
情歌-梁静茹 (ok la i need some love at my funeral =p)

23. What is your biggest fear?
雌雄同体-五月天 (ok tts kind of scary..)

24. What is your hobby/interest?
洋葱-杨宗纬 (yes i like to cook, but definitely not tears!)

25. What do you think of your friends?
知足-五月天 (yep, we should all cherish all we have =D)

2009-03-15T11:59:00.001+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

comments: hmm everything seems to be true except the one on education..hahas =P

2009-03-14T13:06:00.002+08:00

Thanks all my darling friends who came to support my show!!

Ningfei Liqian Weiquan Xueyi James Zhixuan Weekuan Jingwen Boon Cindy Weichuan Shannen Sun Ye Xumei Hiufung and their friends!!

Too tired to write a full draft of my feelings and gratitude now, so in short:

You Rock My World!!!

I deserve a good rest.

^___^

2009-02-28T21:27:00.002+08:00

Stole this from facebook which i wrote on Jan 20 (anyway copyright comes from me too =P)

1) I'm in love with all cinnamon related stuff, esp cinnamon rolls.

2) I'm dying to eat Haagen Daze Bailey's ice cream and Apple Pie A La Cold Stone (which ever outlet at which ever part of the world) (Cold Rock at Holland V is not Cold stone!!)

3)I'm thinking of going for SEP to 1) Nottingham/ 2) Leeds/ 3)UC Santa Cruz at UK/US in Jan 2010. (Not anymore, couldnt map the correct modules =X)

4)I like 黑糖 and 豆腐 (wonder if there's any ice cream related to that??)

5) I'm Excited about the CNY celebration at qingjia's house on 31st. (Yea it was indeed exciting, im now trying to get excited abt my production on Mar 13)

6) I'm having my 3rd production "SunDay" at UCC on Mar13 (and wondering who will turn up) (Well, i sold 17 tixs =D)

7) I get very easily fed up/ irritated by unkept promises. (Maybe its because i got cheated many times before =X)

8) I'm going to take up tennis (for the sake of losing some adipose tissues) and Scuba Diving (have been thinking of this since year 1 in the next semester.

9) I'm not very happy with my current hairstyle but starting to get used to it =P. (Oh i changed my fringe since it grew longer, and it looks better =D )

10) I'm having a 21st birthday party this year =) (Yep! BBQ below my house! Details coming soon)

11) I want to travel alone around Taiwan for at least 2 weeks as a gift to myself for turning 21.

12) I'm going to 林宥嘉's concert on Feb 20 and 五月天's one on Aug 29 =D (Review of linyoujia's concert below!)

13) I don't like to mug. Really.

14) I miss the canyon days every now and then, and wonder if anyone else is doing that too.

15) I want to hike to some ulu place with nice waterfalls and bright stars above my head (hopefully wont get eaten up by some wild animals) (Too bad the kinabalu trip was cancelled.)

16) I'm neither girly nor manly.

17) I love all my friends and am afraid of losing anyone of them, esp (you know who you are =P )

18) I hope to retain the smile on me 24/7. (Like some of you asked me to)

19) I love hugs =D

20) I can bake pretty well and on the way to some good cooking.

21) I want to stay in a house near the sea when im old (it will be cold though)

22) I like abstract art. They give me room to imagine.

23) I want to continue learning Japanese if possible, and perhaps French. (Auntie help me!!)

24) I have watched Phantom Of the Opera 3 times, in Spore, Las Vegas and Broadway NY, and like them all!!

25) I want to get my 2nd passport fully stamped by the time i reach 30. (I think by that time they dont use stamps anymore =( )

2009-02-21T18:19:00.002+08:00

林宥嘉迷宫巡回演唱会2009: 一连串的惊喜

惊喜 #1: 两次Encore!! 而且每次都加唱大概五首歌!!

惊喜 #2: 整整唱了3小时(Sistic 预测1.5)

惊喜 #3: 超过一半冷门好歌(很有它的Style!)

惊喜 #4: 和S.H.E合唱Superstar!! (而且Ella 还在她身上磨蹭=P)

惊喜 #5: 和Olivia合唱Fly Me To The Moon (以为会是传说)

这是一个充满热情和信念的年轻人努力追求自己的梦想，最后在属于自己的舞台上尽情挥洒青春，发光发亮的故事。

同样是20几岁，我却还在原地寻觅。。有一天，我也会打开通往梦想和希望的门吧。

原来好歌不一定广为传唱，广为传唱的歌也不一定好听。

好音乐万岁!!!!!

^__________^

2009-02-14T22:44:00.002+08:00

Happy Valentine's dae!!!

I heard from the news that next year's vdae falls right on 大年初一!!! Which also means that ROM won't be open on that day..so couples can't register for marriage on that faithful day like the previous years, but have to find a "太平绅士" to witness the event..hahas..

Dad leaving tomorrow morning as he starts school again on Mon. So we went for yum cha at chinatown early in the morning. To my surprise, there were a lot of youngsters in the restaurant! Since when did young people start to appreciate this kind of old hongkong breakfast? =P While gobbling down the food and 茶, i noticed a waiter delivering something to the table behind us. It looks like a glass of green cocktail with white fumes oozing out, and i thought it was some kind of 招牌 drink in the restaurant. Decided to end the yum cha session with something sweet and ordered "黑糯米冰淇淋", which turned out to be that "green cocktail" thing!! Acually they put the dessert in a small cone-shaped cup, and then stacked it on top of the cocktail glass. Maybe the dry ice was used to keep icecream cold?

Later we went to bugis for some shopping, and my dad left to do his lectures. So mum and i decided to move on to orchard and remove more adipose tissues. A lot of shops started the 7% gst rebate, but sadly i didnt see a lot of people responding to that. Maybe 7% is not a lot after all..=P Had a very nice dinner after that at home =)

Happy Sweet Valentine!!! XOXO

Love Is In The Air.. ^_____^

2009-02-12T23:40:00.002+08:00

Cause: Did't check my email for one and half days cos i was too tired after the rehearsals that
ended at 11pm.

Result: Used 3hrs today to finish replying 75 emails in my inbox.

Lesson learnt: 我错了. I MUST check my email AT LEAST once everyday..

2009-02-09T01:12:00.006+08:00

What happens if your body, heart and mind grow and age at different times?

My body feels old, but my mind wants to challenge it, and my heart says: follow it.

今天终于见到了很久不见的朋友，知道她过得不太好，有点难过。之前那些想开玩笑骂她不和我们联络的话像卡在喉咙里一样，说不出来了。还好后来聊天聊得心情变得好了很多，可能这就是我的魔力吧。^___^

被问到一句"How did you started this whole theatre thing ah?"
我摇摇头，微笑着说不知道。不知不觉我已经陷进戏剧的漩涡了，而且可怕的是，有种无可自拔的感觉。这种无可自拔并不来自于当时做戏剧的过程，而是做的时候累得要死恨得要死下定决心再也不重蹈覆辙了以后，下一次又若无其事的栽进去了。不知道这样应该称作“贱”，还是“戏瘾”。都说做戏演戏的人是疯子，还真贴切。

我不知道戏剧对我来说有种怎样的吸引力。就是白天想，晚上想，夜里还在梦里工作。我好几次都惊讶的发现自己竟然能把剧本背的一字不漏，而且晚上坐车的时候还三五不时的反复在脑海里重复，在脑海里演戏。自从开始投入幕后的制作后，我才真正开始佩服幕后的工作者。那样的毅力和耐力。时时刻刻打起十二分精神，没有一天不累，没有一分钟能闲着。每一次的戏剧制作班底不同，工作方式也不一样，但我觉得自己担任的角色每次都大同小异。大概是经验的问题吧。其实有很多事情应该是别人负责的，但我每次都自然的伸出肩膀接下担子。可能是因为自己知道如果不这么做，后果需要花两倍的时间来补救。事实上我每次都告诉自己要给别人学习的机会，要让他们试着跌倒再爬起来，我自己当然也乐得轻松，但是上头却永远不能给我他们失败后用来弥补和解决问题的时间。我想给别人机会，却没人给我机会。很不幸的是，这样的问题发生了很多次。所以我就像个后备手一样，一边把担子交给别人，一边做好万一失败必须用双倍时间来弥补的准备。底下的人做不好，责任就算在领导人头上。这就是活生生一个残酷的规矩。这样的状况发生了很多次以后，我大概因为害怕和厌倦，开始不自觉的重新把担子往自己肩上扛。我想尽办法去麻醉疲累，告诉自己不要去想，越想越累。可能这就是每次做完一出戏都疲惫不堪的原因吧。

戏剧带给我的是一种最真实，最直接的感动。自己的付出和努力真的赤裸裸的展现在成果里。虽然念书也是一样，但感觉却很不同。或许我得到的是认同感，我知道我的用心别人看得到。也可能是纯粹想逃避我的烂成绩吧。我想每个人都会寻找证明自己生存的价值，都希望被看成是重要的。我沉醉在大家对戏剧的热忱中，心里觉得很温暖。我想我的价值，应该是属于舞台吧。

之前在必要剧场帮忙的时候惊讶的发现，从舞台监督到灯光到音响师，每个人都有至少一个专科文凭，有工程系毕业的，建筑系毕业的。他们来自不同背景，却一起编织着同一个梦想。曾经听老师说过，我很崇拜的，在小剧场中专业水平第一的舞督毕业自工程系，却重来没有做过和工程有关的工作，她痛恨她所学的。听到这些我的心中好像有种莫名的触动。最近常常问自己一个问题，我有没有可能以后在剧场全职工作，而答案竟然不是完全的否定。这不禁让我感到有点恐惧。我想勇敢的尝试自己热爱的工作，却没有勇气和权利让自己的家人挨饿。或许这就是独生子女的无奈和悲哀吧。

离终点还有很多路要走，但不征服崎岖的山路就永远看不到山顶的繁星和稍纵即逝的日出日落。我已经在半山腰了吧。

加油所有爱我和我爱的人!

2009-01-26T16:09:00.002+08:00

牛年来啦!! 祝大家天天开心 ^___^

2009-01-22T02:05:00.003+08:00

Im so tired!! From the horrible 6-hour lab (really 6 hours straight in the lab, no joke!), and before that a 2 hr lecture. Even worst still have drama rehearsals right after that!! So it's 10am-12, 12-6pm, 630-11pm, without any lunch and dinner breaks!!! Since the 30mins is used to travel from Sci to PGP. Poor starved me..=(

Am i going to repeat this for the next 8 weeks to come??
Alright Alright bread n chocolate bar stocking up time!!

Oh, i realized there's a lecturer in this sem's life sci modules who looks exactly like...

LORD VOLDEMORT!!! (is that how u spell it?) Except that he has a much nicer pointy nose..haa.

Time to sleep!!

So hungry...

2009-01-16T23:35:00.003+08:00

More ice cream!!!

Used to munch on a whole tub of this back in the canyon days..

Haagen-Dazs Bailey's Irish Cream ice cream

2009-01-16T23:20:00.002+08:00

Haaaa! My face was in Straits Times!!!
Jan 15 Life section, page nember i forgot..
Although it was so tiny, and in the midst of so many other people,
still it feels quite shiok..hahaha ^____^

Got photos taken by Straits Times journalist for our upcoming NUS Arts Festival production, "SunDay"..had seen so many articles about the drama that im starting to feel something burning inside me again..in a good way of course =P

They came to take the photos on Tue afternoon at UCC, together with our director, producer, actors and management people. It was very funny at first coz we obviously had problems figuring out what kind of photo they want and we ended up being very stiff and awkward..changed many angles and positions..i think they took 20-30 photos, but ended up using the one we took at the very start..maybe the 1st is always the best..heh ^___^

Come support me ah!!!

Mar13 8pm UCC 不见不散!!

2009-01-15T20:16:00.005+08:00

Oh Man when will i get to eat my Cold Stone ice cream again??

cant believe even Taipei has it now.!!!.

Cold Stone Creamery in San Frans

Ice cream in progress...

Banana Caramel Crunch

2009-01-12T23:31:00.003+08:00

Lesson learnt:

You can put your enire heart and soul into something,

But you cant Expect other people to do that too.

They just wont understand.

They just wont feel.

Because they are, afterall,

OTHER PEOPLE

2009-01-12T20:22:00.003+08:00

Fumigation is a Necessary Evil

Went home today and was greeted by uncountable number of cockroaches..
Worst still, there are crows munching on them!!!

(-__-)

2009-01-11T16:22:00.002+08:00

天啊好日子怎么这么快就过去了!

要开学了!!!

课程表：

Mon:
10am-12 LSM2104 Essential Bioinformatics and Bio computing lect
2-4pm LSM2104 Essential Bioinformatics and Bio computing lab

Tue:
10am-12 GEK1519 Science of Music lect
4-6pm LSM2103 Cell Biology lect
6-9pm GEM2901 Reporting Statistics in Media lect

Wed:
10am-12 LSM2202 Experimental Biology lect
12-6pm LSM2202 Experimental Biology lab

Fri:
10am-12 GEK1519 Science of Music lect
2-3pm GEK1519 Science of Music tut
4-6pm LSM2103 Cell Biology lect

And of course, since im "majoring" in Chinese Drama,

Wed:
630-11pm Rehearsal for Sun Day

Friday:
630-11pm Rehearsal for Sun Day

Sat:
6-8pm Member activity

很快要过没天没地没日没夜没今天没明天的日子啦!!

加油吧!!!

2009-01-01T20:55:00.002+08:00

Happy 2009!!!

Went for the first new year count down with my dear 73 mates at Mt. Faber yesterday, actually just a few hours ago..=)

Met muppet and xuanxuan at clark quay at 3pm, and proceeded to mind's cafe. Later the rest came and we played a number of board games. Personally im in love with Taboo..maybe it is because i like challenging my limits..hahas =p We played a new and improved version of taboo instead of the original taboo. Difference being there are 4 ways of describing the word on the card. You can choose the conventional speaking, or drawing, or describing in less than 15 words, or using mob, which is this cute purple monster puppet with long arms and long legs, depending on the box you land on. It is quite interesting cos a different stack of cards is used for each type of description. When you use mob, the opponent is suppose to hold a card for you away from your team mates, and you have to manipulate mob to describe the action to your team mates. So most of the words on this stack of cards are actrion related, such as dribbling a basketball etc.

Other games like telepathy, which tests the 默契 between you and your partner is also quite interesting. Basically you just need to throw the dice and determine whether your card will be displayed on the picture side or words side, and then draw a card from the stack. Then you have 30sec to write 5,6,7 or 8 words that you think of from looking at the card, together with your partner. Later you need to reveal both of your answers and see how many common words you have. The more the better of course. This game simply proves the excellent 默契 and "telepathy" me and my dear qingjia have..muhahas =P

Later we went to central for dinner, wanted to go to waraku at first, only to realise that it is impossible to get a table for 12 without booking on the eve of new year. So we ended up at the food court instead, which proved to be not bad too. At least you can eat a full meal plus dessert with the same amount of money you would have spent at waraku..hahas =p

Took 124 to muppet's house to put our stuff. Played majong and scrabble for a while and set off to mount faber at around 1115pm. It was my first time to mount faber though it was quite near my house. I quite like the long stairs with the cooling night breeze. It feels cooler walking under the trees covered in a layer of mist. The way up was quite short, but it reminds me of the hiking days at night..=D There was this short stretch of road near the top of mt faber with no trees, and you can really see the entire business district glowing under the stars. By the time we made it there, there were already a lot of people standing by to watch fireworks, some sitting on the road barrier and others setting their tripods. We continued up the top near the jewel box, there were even more people there getting ready their cameras. It wasnt long before the countdown started. It was very funny cos we were standing on the middle of a road, on the left side there were fireworks from marina bay, right above our head there were fireworks from the giant xmas tree on mt faber itself, and at the right there were fireworks from vivocity. Since all the fireworks appeared in the sky at different intervals, you can see the whole crowd of people running from side to side catching different fireworks..hahahas =p

And so, 2009 arrived in the midst of oohs and ahhs..=P

After we left, we went to have dim sum at a coffee shop below muppet's house, and walked to safra to play pool. The pool house closes at 3am so we only had about an hour before they chase us out. By 2am plus most of us are already in the lag phase and we played quite lousily..nevertheless it helped to keep us awake..hahas =p

After that we went back to muppet's house and played card games such as MRT with different variaions like occupation, Beer names, movie titles etc. Of course there was James's Tarot session as well =p Soon most of the people went to sleep while me, ningfei, pj, shell and liqian continued to play the Truth or dare game..actually there were no dare stuff so it was a Turth game..hahas..Surprisingly the game lasted for more than two hours, and i actually managed to stay awake throughout the whole night. 0.0

After our breakfast at the hawker centre, the count outing outing also came to an end, and everyone left to do their first thing in the new year.

Im glad to have spent the first second of the new year with you guys!!

Best wishes and stay happie!!!

Yawns.. ^_________^

2008-12-31T12:22:00.002+08:00

And so, i ended my attachment with TNS. So is my holiday..

Bidding started yesterday, marking the start of yet another challenging year ahead..

Received an email from TNS today, saying that they wanna give me 100 bucks of honorarium for my help. It was quite surprising coz before i went for the attachment i was already told that it is purely on a voluntary basis, and frankly speaking i went for the purpose of wanting to learn stuff, so didnt expect to receive any monetary reward as well..shall take it as a new year gift then..=D

Too sick of writing year end reflections..in fact i just wrote one not long ago?? Shall turn to new year resolutions instead. Hope everything turns out well for the brand new year!! Last year i started the year in the hospital, which was quite a horrible experience. So lets hope for a new and great start!!

Happy 2009 everyone!! Thanks for everything you have ever done for me =) All the very very best and stay happie!!

^__________^

2008-12-28T22:59:00.002+08:00

Xmas came and went..

Received three xmas cards this year, one from singapore, one from China, and one from France. Hopefully the 5 cards that i sent found their owners too =P To be frank, every year near xmas i would thick-skinly start to check my mail box every now and then, hoping to receive some kind of greetings from some where on earth..sometimes it is joy, sometimes it is mere disappointment..But the anticipation when u turn the lock never changes =P

每次收到卡片和信，心里总是满满的感动和感激。尤其是看到那些密密麻麻的字的时候。只要一想到光是下笔，就要花掉对方多少心思和时间，而这一切只是想要给我一个亲切的祝福，想知道我的近况，就觉得好温暖=D 原来不管在世界的哪个角落，永远都会有一些特别的朋友，无时无刻在关心你，帮你加油打气。就算在你意想不到的时候。这让有时候忙起来不经意会忘记这些的我，实在感到惭愧。所以，我也是喜欢亲笔写信，寄信，待信的人。不管多久，我相信那些寄出去的信总会有找到主人的一天，字里行间的温情也不会随着时间而改变。这就是科技永远无法取代的魔力 =)

Thank you shell! Thank you beng! Thank you my dearest dearest auntie!!! I love you all =D

2008-12-26T00:52:00.002+08:00

What i had been doing for the past two days:

Xmas eve:

Went for high-tea with mum in the afternoon at Carousel. I knew it would be good =p Luckily we made reservations earlier, when i called in the second time about a week before xmas, all the lunch hightea and dinner reservations were full till end of the month..0.0 When we reached it was about 320pm, still 10mins before hightea starts, and amazingly the queue to go in was already extending all the way to the rear of the hotel lobby. I like the ambience of the place, cozy and warm. The table was well laid even though it was a buffet restaurant, and i particularly like the black pepper grinder provided on each table. Food always tastes better with freshly ground pepper (by yourself!) =) The variety of food was quite ok, with sushi, kebab, dim dum, rice and some other food common in all buffets. One special thing they have was the kueh pie tee, never seen it in other restaurants before.

To be frank, i went to Carousel specially for their desserts, after reading all the positive feedback from various food critics =P And true enough, they were yummy!! They had three dessert stations, one with scones muffins bread and butter pudding sweet tapioca, one with a choco fountain plus fruits and marsmallows and good ice cream, and best of all a station with very nice french desserts. I tried the madelein with macaron, pistachio cheese cake, and this very nice three layer cake with crunchy choco cereals at the bottom. There were just too many to try and too little space =P Even though the desserts were only part of the entire buffet, you can feel that they really put a lot of effort and heart into it, which definitely made the desserts more yummy than ever =)

Also, being a high-tea buffet, there was no drink station. Instead, the kind waiters will go around serving good tea and coffee. They had a small jug of milk on each table, together with a tiny basket of white, brown and Equal sugar, so you can choose what to add to your tea and coffee =) So sweet!! =) I decided this is the 2nd best buffet restaurant on my list =p The 1st was this place called 百家乐, which had unfortunately closed down due to reasons beyond my understanding..it had a very nice dessert section with many glass shelves, about 3 or 4 levels. On each shelf there were different varieties of desserts all put in shot glasses, tiny but really good =) It is more like a piece of art, which makes you hesitate every time you try to deliver it to your mouth =P

After that we went to Isetan and taka. There were much more xmas decors this year, which made the atmosphere livelier along Orchard. I noticed that many people wore this cute tiny xmas hat on one side of their head, like the small hat that 梁静茹wore in her concert. I tried to find one but tcouldnt spot the place selling it. By 8pm, there were soooo many people on the streets we could hardly walk and breathe, which again proved that spore is so small that as if all the people have to gather along this tiny street to get some atmosphere of this annual holiday. No doubt the gigantic xmas tree in taka caught the attention of most people like how it did in the past few years. Went home at around 10pm, it was quite funny coz everyone was starting to come out and yet we were going back already..=P

Xmas day:

Went to PS with mum to buy some groceries, and joined in the annual Robinsons card members sale. The shop was exploding with people when we reached there, which really gave me a headache. Everyone was snatching and trying things like they had never went shopping before 0.0 After looking around for some time, we managed to get a new bag, belt, bed sheets, cake moulds for me and a shirt for my dad. I queued a whole 1 hour just to pay for the stuff, and both of us decided not to participate in such event ever again unless we were too broke and had too much time =p

After we reached home it was already 6pm and we had to start making dinner. Mum made chicken strips, fries and sausages while i tried a new dish: mango beef. Which turned out to be quite yummy..i must be a genius..ha!! =P Didnt expect a tropical fruit like mango will go so well with beef. I thought it would be salty since i added quite a generous amount of soy sauce for seasoning, but the tangy juice from the mango slice made it just right =) Maybe i will cook this again when my dear friends visit me =)

Made mango-peach-apricot cheesecake in the night, which i will bring to the class xmas party the next day =) It had been a long time since i last made a cheesecake. The last time happened in canyon, when i made a strawberry one for darren before i left. Hopefully it will taste nice, no it will definitely taste nice..hahas =D

Merry Xmas all my dearest friends!! =)

2008-12-23T22:24:00.004+08:00

林宥嘉 [迷宫] 新加坡演唱会2009

20 Feb 2009

Fri 8pm

2008-12-23T22:21:00.000+08:00

当每个人都在努力寻找自己。。

我却慢慢开始迷失了。

2008-12-22T22:09:00.002+08:00

The world is round for a reason.

Even if we depart in opposite directions..

Our paths will cross again..

Someday..

Somewhere..

2008-12-21T23:16:00.003+08:00

It's been more than a week since i stepped into TNS..everything was quite fine except for the super long distance bus rides,,two hours plus everyday.

Everyday i wake up early in the morning and go to the theatre, and when i step out again the sun is already setting..basically TNS is located in the marine parade community centre building basement, and the whole production centre consists of a few admin offices, a rehearsal room, a sets workshop, a pantry, an amazing props room, and an excellent mini theatre called the Black Box. The Black Box is really black, from the floor, the walls and all the way to the ceiling..i quite like it =) Just that after you work in the Black Box for too long, each time you step out into the sun, it feels more glaring than ever..talking about the props room, the 1st time i stepped into it i was so super overwhelmed by the huge collection of props inside!! Very neat and organized too. There were about 8 shelves in total, neatly labelled and with plastic boxes contaning the respective props. They have almost everything that i can think of, all the way from fake stomaches to big luggage bags to old oil lamps to plastic food. Basically u name it, they have it. Even for mirrors they have an entire box of it.. Not to mention the variety of costumes they have. The whole store room is almost twice as big as the entire cabin in cfa, and FULL of props and costumes. I really wonder where they got all that props from..0.0

Finally the workshop with the russian theatre Knam ended, and the very next day the theatre was re-set up for the production in january 2009, Frozen Angels. After doing rehearsals with the actors (only two of them!) for about three days, my conclusion is that, the nus drama clubs including us really has a long way to go. I felt lucky that i managed to get this chance to work with a professional theatre, it was really an eye-opening experience. The actors are always full of passion, and they are able to get into different situations and emotions almost immediately, and they do it very well, not mentioning their ability to memorize a whole 15-page of lines in a mere two days! Excellent i would say..

Other than the usual sai kangs that i did, i was also put to be in charge of collecting costumes from outside companies. Went to joo chiat to get a white shirt yesterday, and tomorrow i need to get a wedding gown from mediacorp, and later in the afternoon go shopping for a handbag for the production. Good thing is you can take taxi where ever you go and get claims from TNS..hahas =p

I was also in charge of the fader in the production, something i had never seen before for my entire life! It was quite interesting working with the fader. Basically they were two machines each with four channels, each linked to either a computer, a dvd player, a camera or a live feed. A live feed is something like a person videoing something and the image is directly projected onto the screen, so the audience is seeing something "live" going on. Frozen Angels uses a lot of multimedia and it makes things technically quite challenging. So each time a fading is done (by moving this lever like thing on the fader), there is a change of image from one channel to another channel, like from a dvd video to a live feed..The 1st day i had quite little time to learn the fader since most of the time was spent on the actors who are not yet familiar with the lines. Had quite little time to test out and it was quite messy. For the 2nd day, some filming and voice recording was done in the morning so i had quite little time to practise as well. For the 3rd day, i was suppose to teach a new intern to use the fader already, since i will not be with the TNS from Jan onwards..pretty fun experience though..=)

Some parts that i like from the script:

"What is your idea of a perfect present?"
"A perfect present is someone to be with. Someone to walk with. Someone to hold."

"What causes time to stop?"
"When we watch the sunset. When we are together. Time stops. Everything stops."

"The world looks smaller from here. The lights are brighter. The biggest ship is the size of my thumb. I see my fingers in the sea. They are moving away from me, slowly, travelling to new places. But I'm not afraid. Because i know, the ships will come back, to me."

2008-12-16T21:45:00.003+08:00

Have been doing attachment with The Necessary Stage 必要剧场 lately..a pretty interesting experience i would say. Currently there is a workshop together with a Russian Production team called Knam. 8 actors in all, half russian and half singaporean..

My job is to assist the current stage manager as best as i could, basically whatever the stage manager wants me to do, i have to do it..mainly a lot of sai kangs..hahas..=p It ranges from sweeping floor to cleaning mics to packing of props and costume to videoing. Today i even steamed something that looks like a cyc..

I went in with almost nothing, like a piece of white paper, and i would say i learned quite a lot, even though i had been there for just three days..im sure there are more things to look at and to learn for the next few weeks till end of the year..the structure of the workshop is such that in the morning there will be a warm up session, followed by some exercises, lunch, role playing, and finally discussions.. basically there is a in charge from the russian group and one from the TNS side, and they will take turns to conduct activities with the actors..it was quite an interesting experience cos at first there were no translators, and the russians have some problems with the english language, so half of the time the actors have to guess what the 2 insturctors mean and want from them..

Even with obstacles from the difference in languages, the actors are always able to complete the tasks assigned by the instructors, and im really amazed by their ability to work with each other with great understanding..everytime i step into the theatre, their passion in the performing srts reallt touches my heart..=) perhaps there is really no barrier in the Arts as long as you put your heart and soul into it..=)

Sometime when i think of it, i cant help but to feel ironical and to a small extent, ridiculous. Back in the JC days, there were so many comrades devoting their precious time and effort into huangcheng, everyone felt like there was nothing more important than to put up an impressive performance. We all shared that passion.. I thought that passion would not subside for many years to come, even after we graduate.. Sadly, even though people still get tickets for huangcheng after they step into Uni, i cant remember anyone who is still actively involved in theatre other than myself. Maybe a few still does..so few that i can count with a single hand..

Who would have thought that a mere tiny costume member in the old days would continue to contribute to the arts industry and still be involved in theatre productions when the others have long forgotten that passion? I know. This is just life.

One thing i know for sure, i did not regret. And im proud of myself.

Jiayou Sky!!

2008-12-14T23:35:00.002+08:00

最近又发现了一首好歌。
真希望听着听着，就能把那些不开心的事一扫而空。。
不知道还能撑多久。。

自言自语--范晓萱

天是灰色的
雨是透明的
心是灰色的
我是透明的

爱是盲目的
恋是疯狂的
痴是可悲的
我是绝对的

你是自由的
我是附属的
她是永远的
我是错误的

梦是美好的
你是残酷的
我是灰色的
我是透明的

你是自由的
我是附属的
她是永远的
我是错误的

梦是美好的
你是残酷的
我是灰色的
我是透明的

2008-12-10T22:22:00.004+08:00

最近一直觉得好累。。超累的好不好！！！

我讨厌这个样子。

但生命不会就这样停下来。

这么大的落地窗，为什么就看不到一丝温暖的阳光？

心理测验：

如果要你用一个男人和一只小鸟来勾勒一幅画，你会怎么下笔？

A: 男人望着笼子中的小鸟
B: 男人望着站在他手中的小鸟

分析（灰色的字）：

A: 你目前有一个心仪的对象，但你却没有勇气告诉他，或对他展开追求。
B: 你目前和你喜欢的人很快乐的在一起，而且不担心他会离开你，或逃开你的手掌心。

2008-12-10T20:44:00.003+08:00

又度过了一个平静的下午。。

早上睡到自然醒，看了《大学生了没》，然后跑到Vivocity去买圣诞卡片，

经过电影院时，看到Bolt上映了，毫不犹豫的买了一张票。。

后来到叶一堂去找上次看到的卡片，发现早就没有了=(

本来想买本新笔记本接替旧的舞督手札，找了很久，看到一本喜欢的，标题是Secret Garden, 一转头竟然又看见埋在书堆中的Blue Sky！！很喜欢，封面写的字有点忘记了。。可惜不是硬皮书，想了很久最后还是没买。

之后去看了Bolt, 很温馨，旁边坐着一对情侣和那女朋友的弟弟，弟弟很聪明，一进去就故意坐在三张椅子的中间，搞得姐姐有点尴尬。。很有趣。。哈哈。电影真得不错看，小狗的毛做得好逼真，细节也处理得很好=) 不过最近看电影总觉得自己的眼泪真得很廉价耶，怎么这么容易就被骗到了呢？？

出来的时候经过Daiso, 还是没有适合的笔记本，倒是看到很多下次做手工可以用到的东西。。

后来觉得不太甘心，又坐80号去了书城。本来想坐10号去海边的，想说路过的时候买盒冰淇淋，然后边嗑边看夕阳落入海平线，但想到明天就到马岭百列去做attachment了，机会多得是，明天再去也不迟。。

在书城转了很久，终于买到了卡片，可惜没有好的笔记本。=X 倒是让我在一个偏僻的角落发现了一家很有味道的小店。店名是Cats Socrates, 很特别，一进去映入眼帘的是有点像lounge bar的风格，轻轻的爵士乐，简简单单的设计，卖的东西不是很多，但每一样都很有特色，特别喜欢它的笔记本，很多是用再循环纸做的。特别喜欢那种粗粗，但很有质感的东西。。有原始的感觉=D 老板们很悠闲的在里面聊天，好像还有一个小小的咖啡座。很舒服，淡淡的，但下次会让人还想再去的小店。

最后又去国家图书馆借了4本好书。好久没好好的看书了。。

平静的一天。。

2008-12-09T22:27:00.002+08:00

你不是真正的快乐--五月天

人群中哭着
你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会
梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了
你已经决定了

你静静忍着
紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜
就是越伤人了
越是在手心留下
密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了
於是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则
不是你的选择
於是你含着眼泪
飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞的走着

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了
然后才后悔着

你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什麽失去了
还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤
全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着

2008-12-06T20:35:00.005+08:00

最近经常想起以前的好多好多事。。那些美好的回忆，好甜，好美，想着想着忍不住就笑了出来。。

是不是现实生活中，不是真正的快乐呢？

明知道要向前看，却控制不了自己的思绪。。

重新翻开以前的照片，发现照片里的我，每一张都很好看。我想，那是因为当时的我是真正的快乐吧。。

那些远离平地，远离钢筋水泥的日子。好自在。

好怀念那些半夜一二点大家一起喝酒聊天的日子。一起追夕阳，一起看日出，一起爬山，一起下海。在小小的酒吧里跳着不知是什么的舞，在很滑的小溪里摔得四脚朝天。一起在寒冷的晚上烤肉，一起吃Bailey雪糕。一起在伸手不见五指的停车场看满天的星星，一起在从flagstaff回去的小车上看窗外的月亮。一起在电影院里疲惫的睡着，一起吃刺激的泰国料理。一起去遛狗，一起骑脚踏车过金门大桥。一起迷失方向，一起

我想念那个陪我看夕阳的你，请我吃牛排大餐的你，陪我到悬崖边呐喊的你，什么都没说但给了我一个温暖的肩膀的你，陪我一起去爬山的你，请我吃雪糕的你，和我一起在寒冷的天台上聊天的你，载我飞奔下山坡的你，和我一起跳舞的你，和我一起比腕力的你，和我一起大笑的你。和我抢吃一个苹果的你，帮我轻轻盖上被子的你，和我一起躺在中央公园柔软的草地上的你，在帝国大厦看夜景的你，在maswik一起奋斗的你，在人都走光了后来听我唱最后一首歌的你，greyhound车上和我抢一件外套的你，陪我一起吃pizza的你，相信我的你。

这么多，这么多的你。

我知道，很快的，这些都会变成真正的回忆。。但当时快乐的心情，已经深深的烙在我的心里。。

亲爱的老哥们啊！

寒山松鼠应该是生活在无忧无虑的深山里，而不是穿梭在钢筋水泥之中吧？？

最近一直梦到有人在梦中给了我一个大大的，温暖的拥抱。这个人每次都不一样。。但每个拥抱都好真实。。到底是什么意思啊？？如果每次的梦都是真的就好了。。哈哈。。=D

2008-12-04T11:36:00.002+08:00

昨天一大早去剪了一个新发型，没想到会变成个妹妹头。。而且有点短了。。天啊！

后来连看了两场电影，马达加斯加2 和海角7号，爽！

海角7号真不是一般的好看！很有质感的一部电影，淡淡的，很美。尤其是念了日文之后，更能感受7封信里面的意境，很感动！！

第5封信：

夜が明けたでも、僕には関係ないどちみち、太陽がこい霧がつれてくるだけだ夜明け前の洸惚の時、年老いた君のゆうびの姿を見たよ僕は、髪がうすくなり、目もたれていた朝の霧が舞う雪のように、僕の額をおいはげしい太陽が君の黒髪を焼き盡くした僕らの胸の中の最後の餘熱はかんぜんにん冷め切った

黎明前的一段恍惚，我见到了日后的你韶华已逝，日后的我发秃眼垂，晨雾如飘雪，覆盖了我额上的皱纹，骄阳如烈焰，焚枯了你秀发的乌黑，你我心中最后一点余热完全凋零

第6封信：

写真の海は風もなく、雨もなく、、そして君は天国にいるみたいに笑っている

照片里的海没风也没雨，照片里的你，笑得就像在天堂

晚上亲爱的老哥们又请吃了一顿牛排大餐加Mocktail。。
开心的一天！

(^________^)

2008-12-02T22:41:00.008+08:00

End of last paper lo..good time for a good post-sem reflection..

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I had a challenging, inspiring, tedious, stressful, tiring, tough and rewarding sem i guess..

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Maybe i had too great a time back in the canyon..took a very very long time to get back to the hectic lifestyle..especially for the production side..and talking about productions, i made my 2nd production since i stepped into uni, and it was quite a success from the feedback and response gathered..i had already started on my 3rd production, being the production manager this time..guess it will be 10 times as tough as the previous, 4 rehearsals every week, have to pon 5 days of sch for bump in, in the midterm exam week..=\

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I should say the modules that i took were reasonably ok, in fact should be considered as a bit slack compared to the previous and those to come..no major labs, just one level one module, and no need to do any lab reports..and best of all, i managed to complete my favourite jap2 =D

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Frankly speaking, jap was my favourite module up to now, even though the grades had always been quite lousy, and workload is heavy, with 1x2hr lecture + 2x2hr tut + 1x1hr tut + 3 quizzes per week, not including homework projects and oral presentations, theres something that somehow makes you want to keep taking it. I guess it's the senseis..in fact im missing my sensei already..

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I still remember my 1st lecture in jap one, the sensei taught nothing but classroom greetings.. honestly i didnt think much about it at that time, but surprisingly the senseis were particularly strict about those greetings. From the 2nd lecture onwards, the sensei will greet us おはよう　ございますbefore the morning lecture and we are asked to reply, and さんようならat the end. Tutorials are the same. There is also things to say when you enter the sensei's office, and the same when you go out. In every announcement that they put on ivle, they will write things like "how are you lately" and "today is friday and tomorrow is weekend, please rest very very well and take good care of your health". Even for the emails, my sensei will write a bit on what she has been doing lately, like going to bintan to play golf and stuff like that, when it's just a small reminder for you to bring your homework on the next day..They always try their best to write a lot of encouraging remarks on the homework submissions, and chat with the students on their recent happenings..

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In my last tutorial, i brought a camera to take photos with my favourite sensei, and she says she had already brought one herself, and she took photos for everyone in the class =) It is this kind of lovely teachers that really make you want to take the module over and over again, regardless of the grades..there's this very special thing about jap language modules, the same sensei will finish teaching all levels of jap from 1000 to 4000 for each preceeding sem, before repeating from level 1000 again, which means that if you plan to take jap modules from level 1000 to 4000 continuously for 4 sems, you will always see the same sensei in each sem!! But the tutorial teachers will change of course. Which also means that if you skip a sem and take the next level again, you will see a different lecturer =( Personally i love this system, coz by the 2nd sem you will already be very familiar with the sensei and his/her style of teaching, and it's like, the sensei is watching you grow and improve as you move on..=)

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Too bad i wont have a chance to take jap3 next sem, since i have 3 comlusory modules and i had to take 1 singapore studies and 1 GEM module..which means i wont be able to see the same sensei again..haiz =(

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I remember writing about my sensei asking to try my cakes, but her birthday falls on the day of the jap final exam..so i had no time to bake one for her..after the exam almost all her tutorial students went down to the examiner's table to wish her お誕生日おめでとう..and she was quite touched..hahas =) So heres an email that i wrote to her, and her reply:

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Me to Fuji Sensei:

ふじ先生、

お誕生日おめでとう！今日の試験はちょっとむずかしかったですが、おもしろかったですね！最近試験がたくさんあります、よく準備しているから、ケーキの作る時間があまりありません。先生の誕生日に、ケーキを作てあげません、ほんどうすみません！でも、大丈夫！チャンスがあったら、わたしはきっと二つケーキを作て、先生にあげますよ！！

いろいろお世話になりました，どうもありがとうございます！

お誕生日おめでとう！！ (^_____^)

リ・ティアンジャオ

(Translation: Fuji sensei, happy birthday! Today's exam is quite tough, but very interesting! Lately i had a lot of exams, and spent a lot of time trying to prepare for them, and i didnt have time to make cakes. I wasnt able to give sensei a cake on your birthday, very sorry about that! But, it's ok, if theres a chance next time, i will surely make 2 cakes and give sensei!! Thanks for all the care and guidance you had given me in the past, thanks a lot! Happy birthday!)

Sensei to me:

ティアンジャオさん

温かいお誕生日のメッセージをくれて、どうもありがとう！
みんなにやさしくしてもらって、本当に幸せです。

日本語２の試験、おつかれさまでした。
「おもしろかった」と言ってくれて、うれしいです！
まだ試験がありますか？がんばってくださいね！

本当にどうもありがとう！！

(Translation: Thanks for the very warm and touching birthday message! All of you are very kind and easy going, i feel very happy! Thanks for your hard work for the final exam, Im very glad and grateful to hear that the exam is interesting! Do you have any more exams going on? ll the very best! Thank you very much! )

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很温馨吧? 现在知道为什么想一直一直修读下去了吧??

(^____________________^)

2008-12-01T00:34:00.002+08:00

我讨厌这种被欺骗的感觉。

但我什么都不能做。

我真是一头不长进的蠢猪啊。

=(

2008-11-26T23:49:00.002+08:00

这是我第100封帖子了！！

今天好开心！！！

下午去了趟邮局，寄卡片给远方的好朋友。后来回家的时候，一开信箱，竟然收到她的信！！！！

这就是所谓的心有灵犀吗？真的是可遇不可求啊！！

后来读着读着，又第N次的流下感动的泪水 =P

现在还会有多少人愿意拿起笔，写下满满的真挚的祝福，然后傻傻的等待回信的那一天呢？

我就会！！

好开心好开心好开心！！！！！

(^____________________________^)

2008-11-25T22:58:00.002+08:00

Who says we have to believe in science all the time??

Question: Why is it that sometimes when you step out into the sun, u suddenly feel like sneezing?

Answer 1:

This is because when you suddenly look up at the sun, some light enters your nostrils, transmitting a signal to your eyes. This stimulates some of the rods and cones in the eye cells, transmitting a signal to your brain, which in turn initiates a response in your nose, causing you to sneeze.

Answer 2:

Because someone is thinking of you!! =)

Can my dream guy be someone like Jamie Oliver? Who cooks well, love kids, and looks reasonably good!! Hahas=P

2008-11-17T23:47:00.002+08:00

五月天 - 后青春期的诗

当烟雾随晨光飘散
枕畔的湖已风乾
期待已退化成等待
而我告别了突然

当泪痕勾勒成遗憾
回忆夸饰着伤感
逝水比喻时光荏苒
终於我们不再
为了生命狂欢
为爱情狂乱
然而青春彼岸
盛夏正要一天一天
一天的灿烂

谁说不能让我
此生唯一自传
如同诗一般
无论多远未来
读来依然一字一句
一篇都灿烂

让天空解释着蔚蓝
浮云定义着洁白
落花铺陈一片红色地毯
迎接我们到未来
精彩未完的未来

2008-11-15T00:24:00.002+08:00

如果有一台摄影机，能够把人从出生到死亡的每一份每一秒都记录下来，

然后等死去后再拿出来看，不吃不喝也不睡，

光是要把它看完，就得花上一整个下辈子的时间吧。。。

2008-11-12T22:42:00.002+08:00

雨季。

连续下了两天的雨，让原本就糟透的心情变得更灰暗了。好不容易熬过一天，晚上坐车回家的时候，从布满雨滴的窗口望出去，却只看到蒙蒙的一片。

最近一直在想，我到底是怎么了？？每天每天，都觉得仿佛有什么沉重的东西压在心上似的，让我睡也睡不好，考也考不好，玩也玩不好，想笑笑不出来，想哭也哭不出来。我想逃跑，却找不到一个好的避难所。想救救自己，却不知道该怎么做。就连想形容，也找不到适合的文字。好像有一个很重很重的铅球绑在我的脚上，把我不断的不断的往下拉，不让我有挣脱，有往上爬的机会。

为什么会这样子？？好难过。。=(

不知道从什么时候开始，当初开始这个博客的意义已经已经一点一点的荡然无存了。最最开始只是单纯的想透过这个小小的空间，让我毫无头绪又复杂的被压抑的情绪能够得到抒发，更简单来讲，就是想发泄而已。但是随着看博客的人越来越多，每当下笔的时候，一想到内容可能牵涉到某些会看博客的人，每个字都不经意的变得小心翼翼，有时候甚至硬把想说的话吞回肚子里，干脆不写了。让我本来就已经很乱的情绪变得更加复杂。它好像变成了我的负担似的。。连这个仅存的小小空间，都快消失了。可悲的是，创造它的人是我，毁灭它的也是我。。

实在受不了的时候，就想办法麻醉自己，告诉自己会写在博客里的人，都应该是我最亲密的人，而我应该相信他们会懂，所以根本不需要去顾虑这么多。但要一个一向先考虑别人立场，别人感受的我去这样做，真的好难好难。于是每当想要书写我内心真实感受的时候，就变成了一种挣扎，甚至是折磨。。

其实不太经常邀请别人看我的博客，因为真正用心去写的文章，真正投入感情的文章，真正是为了抒发我内心感受的文章，几乎都是晦涩，枯燥，冗长，矛盾，悲观，灰色的。。实在很不想因为这样影响别人的情绪，让别人替我担心。。但偶尔我也会想，那些真正关心我的人，应该不会介意吧。。希望如此。。

好想有个肩膀可以让我痛痛快快的大哭一场，但我知道，当我有了肩膀，我也哭不出来了。好像有个地方能够让我大喊特喊，喊到喉咙都哑了，但我知道，当我到了那个地方，我也喊不出来了。为什么会这样。。

我的心好痛，好难受。。到底还要持续多久？？

我到底在干吗？？？

唉。这又是一篇折磨人的文章吧。。如果你不幸看到了，对不起。。

大雨过后，应该会有灿烂的彩虹吧？？

但雨，到底什么时候才会停呢？？

=(

2008-11-09T22:02:00.001+08:00

What does my birthdate mean for my love life =)

Your Birthdate: April 7

Calm and understated, you struggle to express your love with words.

Over time, your partner learns to recognize your passion by the actions you take.

You're good at wooing someone slowly, without them even realizing it!

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 2

You are most compatible with people born on the 7th, 16th, and 25th of the month.

2008-11-05T19:37:00.005+08:00

Your Birthdate: April 7

You are an island. You don't need anyone else to make you happy.

And though you see yourself as a loner, people are drawn to you.

Deep and sensitive, you tend to impress others with your insights.

You also tend to be psychic - so listen to that inner voice!

Your strength: Your self sufficiency

Your weakness: You despise authority

Your power color: Maroon

Your power symbol: Hammer

Your power month: July

As of 11/5/2008 7:32:12 AM ESTY

you are 20 years old.

You are 247 months old.

You are 1,074 weeks old.

You are 7,517 days old.

You are 180,415 hours old.

You are 10,824,932 minutes old.

You are 649,495,932 seconds old.

Your birthstone is Diamond

The Mystical properties of Diamond

Diamonds are said to increase personal clarity to help one see things clearly as well as be straight-forward and honest. Supposedly, the higher quality the diamond, the better it is supports these qualities.

Your birth tree is

Rowan, the Sensitivity

Full of charm, cheerful, gifted, without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.

2008-10-31T20:58:00.004+08:00

Although i hate to admit it, post-production depression is here again..yes, AGAIN..=X Actually i was quite glad to receive the news that we hit FULL HOUSE this time, there were even people who didnt manage to enter the theatre coz all the tickets were given out..算是小小的慰藉吧 =)

It was a feeling i didnt know how to describe..i compare with the previous production, somehow it was different..maybe it was bcoz i had a much harder time this time ba..when the last production ended, i was happily looking forward to the next one...but when this one ended..i actually started to doubt if i want to continue to be involved in the coming one or not..

There were just so many unhappy experiences, even till the last day..i must admit that i didnt enjoy myself as much as i had thought in the beginning..but still, i put in 200% of my effort..

i was forced to do many things that i hated, tolerate things that were intolerable, put on smiles when i feel like crying, silence myself when i feel like shouting, force myself to take more stress when im on the verge of bursting...

I hope more people can understand how i feel, but sadly there were just so few..

You never know how it feels like to drag your feet across the souless field at 12 midnight, when there were nothing but droplets and droplets of rain, the humid air so thick you could hardly breathe, seeking some warmth from nothing but the dim light of a lonely pathetic lamp post..

Last week i had to stay in school till midnight for 5 days out of 7, went without dinner for 3 consecutive days and without lunch for 2..

How i wish there can be someone standing there waiting for me at the end of each hard day, with just a single line of encouragement, or a hug, or just a pat on the shoulder, for im struggling to live each day with all my energy and strength and heart and soul..but there were nothing, as always, just darkness and more darkness..

Everyday, i tell my people, if there's anything they are not sure with, just ask me, if there's anywhere they dont know how to go, i will bring them, if there's any troubles, talk to me, if anything happens, i will shoulder it...i knew i had to do this..and i did..

There wasnt a single day that i could rest properly without having to worry about pdn stuff..even when i sleep i have nightmares about rehearsals and deadlines..=(

But where is my light?

This is really a test of perserverence tolerance and will power..

I feel like doing nothing but sleep an entire day..

Maybe it's now time to rest..

I lost 3kg..

2008-10-31T20:22:00.004+08:00

终于捕捉到了相隔好多好多月亮后的第一个夕阳...

今天过天桥的时候，无意间看到黄昏的景象，

毫不犹豫的拿出相机拍了一张 =)

一转身，发现一个男生，站在我身后看着同样的方向...

2008-10-30T11:02:00.002+08:00

终于结束了!! 谢谢大家来捧场!! 你们最棒! =)

2008-10-26T21:43:00.002+08:00

两首好歌：

稻香 --周杰伦

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什麼人要这麼的脆弱堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好

不要这麼容易就想放弃就像我说的
追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色
先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机现在终於飞回我手里

所谓的那快乐赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了谁在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著风唱著歌睡著了
哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切就算没有拥有

月光手札 --SHE

青春是窗边那份月光手札
遇见你至千至夜也无暇
曾经的夜里你会点灯开始写她
用世上最清脆温柔的笔画

你不爱了吧所以渐渐的将笔搁下
只剩我一个人傻傻
在月光下静静翻阅那些话

爱不爱我你都懒得回答
原来我付出的年华只换到你的潇洒
我的愿望奢侈吗
就算只是一小束花

爱不爱我你都懒得回答
我的眼泪你也慢慢别过头不再去擦
我是一把无奈的雪花
漫步在你给的炎夏

深情像无须灌溉那盆插花
所以你宁愿忽略了也不怕
没有爱了吧所以你渐渐不再看她
只剩我褪色的纸呀
在月光下没有人可以说话

爱不爱我你都懒得回答
我的眼泪你也慢慢别过头不再去擦
我是那份悲伤的手札
只为等你写几句话

2008-10-07T22:38:00.002+08:00

Reading the newspapers had thus became a painful job..

Everything you see revolves around:

1) Economic downturn (getting from bad to worst)

2)Poisonous dairy products and hence the cascade of events (more and more related stuff uncovered)

3)Rise in prices (Food-transport-electricity-phone bills)

4)People killing other people (mom and 17th yr old daughter from china, and disfigured 14-yr old)

5)People committing sucide (korean actor and actress, guy and girl from Bt Batok)

What's happening to the world??

Haiz...

2008-10-03T23:49:00.002+08:00

Exerpt from Japanese 2 oral presentation 1 script:　

わたしの趣味

わたしのしゅみはケ一キをつくることです。二年前に日本のケ一キの店で働きました。五月ぐらいケ一キの作り方を習いました。チ一ズケ一キとバタ一ケ一キを作ることができます。友達の誕生日とクリスマスにケ一キを作っています。とてもおもしろくて、おいしいです。

先生のコメント：

日本のケ一キの店はどこですか。いいですね！わたしの誕生日もぜひおねがいします！でもわたしの誕生日はFinal Examの日ですから、テイアンジアオさんはとてもいそがしですね。

My hobby

My hobby is baking cakes. I worked at a Japanese cake shop two years ago, and learned how to make cakes for about five months. I can make cheese cake and butter cake. I make cakes on my friends' birthdays, and during the Christmas season. It is very interesting and the cakes are very yummy!

Teacher's comment:

Where is the Japanese cake shop?? That is very good! I hope to try your cakes on my birthday too! But my birthday falls on the day of Japanese 2 final exam, you must be very busy then..

2008-09-30T20:20:00.003+08:00

前天晚上听到别人对我说：

我会一直在你身后支持你..

竟然傻傻的感动得哭了..

人在拥有了依靠的时候

是不是会变得比较脆弱？

谢谢你宽厚温暖的肩膀

=D

2008-09-28T00:39:00.004+08:00

Things i hope to get for my 21st birthday (Thick-skinly =P):

A set of spices and condiments which include:

-Basil leaves

-Parsley

-Oregano

-Grounded lemon pepper

-Granulated onion

-Garlic powder

-Paprika

-Whole Black pepper corn
(Those type that can be ground fresh, grinder comes with the bottle)

I promise to make good food!!! Heh =D

2008-09-26T23:58:00.013+08:00

Went to watch Hana Yori Dango movie 2dae at cine..finally!!!

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It was a decision on impulse, coz i realized that if i dont go today, i wont have anytime on sat, sun and the following week, and the movie will probably be down the week after..so i ran out of my house at 1246pm and reached there at 140pm, just in time for the 145 show..

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Not a bad movie after all, camparable to the tv series in Japan..=)

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Most importantly, part of the movie was shot right in the heart of Las Vegas, which inevitably brought back tons of beautiful memories..I think most of that part i was thinking about my own experiences rather than watching the movie itself..hahas =P

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It was just before my work term ended, when the 4 of us decided to go to vegas. Boon and da jie went 1st since they took off day one day earlier than me and da ge. I still remember trying all methods to ask my colleagues to cover up for me coz i got to leave 30min earlier that day in order to catch the cheap vision's bus..it wasnt a big deal after all in the end..hahas =) The canyon was facing the problem of over-staff especially for front of house at that time and da ge happily got off 2 hours earlier to go back to his dorm to get his stuff, while i had to compete with every sec to get my food done and ensure that there was enough to last when i was away, till the afternoon shift people came in..

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It was a miracle that we actually managed to squeeze up the vision's bus, after hearing lots of rumours and 2nd hand information from our friends who got abandoned by the bus after waiting patiently for abt 3,4 hours..=P But since it was actually a tour bus taking people from vegas to the canyon and back in 1 day, we have to wait for the bus to stop at all the attraction points in the canyon (which we have visited a thousand times) before it finally departed for vegas. Well, what more can we ask for a 25bucks trip to vegas??

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I remember being awaken by the tour guide as the bus passed by hover dam, and immediately went to back to sleep in 3 sec..it was a 5.5 hr ride and we only managed to reach at abt 10pm. It was exactly the same as what i've seen on TV, lots of neon lights and extravagant hotels each with its own unique theme. Ours was the Excalibur castle, which i later discovered to be modelled after a knight-and-sword story..We immediately tried to use the walkie talkie to communicate with the others, only to find ourselves talking to the air around us.

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Luckily we managed to contact each other in the end, without having to spent the night on the streets(which might not be bad after all..heh =P). Since me and da ge had considerably little time, we decided to explore the place on that 1st night, after being abandoned by Mr boon and da jie at the restaurant (Sheraton Forest?) which sells steak at 8 bucks after midnight..

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There we saw the famous New york New york, Paris, Bellagio(with its world recognised giant majestic water fountains), Planet Hollywood, Caesars palace, Treasure island, Luxor, and of course MGM (with a huge lion cage and real lions!!!!). What's more amazing is that each hotel had its own casino and each with a style of its own! Too bad i was one year away from the casino tables and the tempting ice cold magheritas..=(

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Went to queue for tickets for Phantom of the Opera early 2nd day morning, and later went for a brazilian brunch (which was more like lunch) at planet hollywood together with Steven Emmanuel Xiangyan and Kevin (Wu si kai!! I swear =P). The lao ban niang was actually korean and was kind enough to show us around her kitchen before we sat down for a meal full of meat and very nice cheese bread right from the oven =) They also had this huge wine bottle with the wine menu printed on it =) Too bad there was no room for the tandelising mouth-watering eyeballs-catching desserts, which looked all so nice and yummy

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After that we went to get tickets for Phantom in Venetian, which was the most beautiful hotel i have ever seen in my whole life!! Especially with the gondolas and the river which flowed all the way into the hotel from the outside. The celings too were decorated with European art and it makes you feel like you are really in Venice!!

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Following that we walked around shopping for evening dress (da jie) and shoes (me) before going back to Venetian for the Phantom of the Opera at 7pm. It was super impressive coz they actually built a theatre just for Phantom (called the Phantom Theatre!!) and the sets inside are permanently there just for that show! Quite a different experience from the one i watched in singapore, mainly more special effects (a grand chandelier made up of 4 small chandeliers, and live fireworks on stage!!), but the people didnt sing as well as those in singapore and broadway(which i later went to watch).

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Went to Danny's for supper after that, before taking the Deuce bus to Fremont, which was supposed to be one of the liveliest places in vegas..larger casinos, more bars (with bartop dancing), and there was this man who can paint amazing pictures in 5 mins using just spray paint alone, like those seen on tv. After that we went back to the Strip (street with all the signature hotels) and that was when i finally got my 1st magherita!! All thanks to my lovely brothers and sister who promised to make me drunk at least once before i return to the canyon =P All along the streets you see people carrying big tubes of magheritas in all funny shapes (high heel shoes!) and drinking like nobody's business..actually it just tasted like smoothies with some alchohol in it..but i think i got very high and started to laugh non-stop like a mad person..hahas =P One of the most enjoyable nights i had in US though..=D

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The next day we went to a Japanese restaurant for brunch (again!) as the buffets in vegas are well-known for their low cost and good quality..it was really good, with all kinds of sushi teppanyaki sukiyaki sashimi desserts etc and the green tea soft ice cream was really good!! After that me and da ge went to Premium outlet to shop, where everything was really cheap, all branded somemore!! And the Levis jeans cost only 20 plus!!! Too bad we need to catch our greyhound bus at 8pm, so we had only limited time there, while Boon and da jie had another day in vegas..but they went to watch mama mia at around the same time as us though..=)

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The tiny bus station was packed with people going home in LA, Santa Babara, and all sorts of places, and most of them have lots and lots of bags..=p The bus ride (which was super cold and we had to share a single jacket =X) took us 5 hours to get to flagstaff..i remember reaching flagstaff at 145am, and we had to call a taxi to bring us up to the canyon, which cost us another 100 bucks in addition to the 60 bucks bus ride..=X So when we finally reached the canyon it was already abt 330am, and after i showered and stuff it was about 4am.

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That was when i did the craziest thing in my whole life, which was to get up at 5am again to go to work!!! Hahas i really must have been crazy then..for the 1st two hours of work i totally didnt know what i was doing i think..=P Luckily da ge had a day off so he could sleep like a pig..=(

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Afterall, a really packed but super duper enjoyable experience at Las Vegas, especially with my brothers and sister around..=P

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Awww..how i miss those times.....=)

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Hopefully theres a chance to go there again in the future..with you people of course!!! =D

2008-09-24T23:59:00.003+08:00

Life's been full of struggles lately..hardly have a chance to gasp for some air =(

Ever since i stepped up to this position, things hardly ever went on smoothly..sort of expected the challenges ahead..but..isnt it a bit too much?? It's already past 6 months and things are still going on this way..perhaps this just shows just how inefficient i am and the many skills im still lacking and should start training on..haiz..

Been busy preparing for the upcoming oct pdn, in fact dedicating almost 80% of my time to it..staying late in school for more than half of the days in a week, running between front and back stage, actors and directors, heads and leaders, cfa and ucc, exco and members..blah blah..

Hardly have the time to eat a meal at home or talk to my closer ones or flip a page of my dust-covered notes..and even if i have the time, i would find myself picking up calls from my excos or the admin staffs or sms-ing my directors and crews or replying endless emails that never fail to choke up my inbox without me checking just for a few hours..=X

Most disappointing is the presence of some extremely uncooperative and harsh and irritating and unfeeling people who always create dins big and small for you, every now and then. Worst still is u have to force yourself to tolerate their tempers and try your best to mitigate things so as to maintain the image of the whole group and all the others around you just dont understand it..sianzz

Alright alright i understand all this is just A PART OF THE LEARNING PROCESS, thats why im still trying my best to put everything in their correct orders and face every problem that is to be faced and be prepared for more coming up..

Alright got to start re-doing my bump in schedule and email seniors and chase the directors to catch up with the production schedule and monitor the progress of my backstage people and write the tech rider and design my cuelist and think about next week's activity..

I hope i survive my midterms..haha.

Can anyone buy me an oxygen mask??

Ok, maybe i just wanna complain....*rolling on the bed* *throwing fists in the air*

Hahahas..stop being so whiney!!! =P

Alright, back to reality..

Jiayou ba =D

2008-09-16T19:39:00.003+08:00

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2008-09-14T22:55:00.002+08:00

人都是需要爱的动物吧..

要不然为什么

张开双手就是想拥抱...

指指脸颊就是想亲吻...

=D

2008-08-27T22:48:00.003+08:00

After the havasupai, san diego, los angeles, san francisco, new york, niagara falls,

Im finally back to singapore. It's like 回到地球表面。

Spent a long long time trying to drag myself back to the singapore life again..

Somehow, some things seemed to have changed, and will never be the same again..

Once again im engulfed by loneliness..

I guess im too used to being taken care of by my lovely brothers and sisters..hahas..sometimes it feels great just knowing that you are not alone..waking up to a room of four people just feels so different from that of none..

I think that's one of my bad points..once people are kind to me, one part of me will become dependent..haiz =X

My dad will be flying off to Shanghai for his PHD degree, which takes 2 years..

Im beginning to fear the echoes coming from the walls of my empty house..

There seems to be a hole that can never be filled no matter how hard i try..=(

Time to train my EQ!!!!!

2008-06-29T01:37:00.003+08:00

Went for overnight hiking last weekend, sat and sun. Very tiring, but definitely worthwhile.

Tried the Bright Angel trail and south kaibab trail before that, not too bad, and this one was to link up the gaps between the two trails, and of course to see the colorado river. Our plan was to descend from south kaibab all the way to the river and then up again by Bright Angel trail. It was really an impromtu trip, as in we only brought up the idea on thursday night, and friday i was already at the backcountry office to collect the overnight camping permit.

It was definitely an experience for me coz i obviously havnt had any chance to hike overnight, especially at the canyon! It cost 5 bucks for employees to book a place at the campground, and they will print you this document that says you are the "trip leader" and stuff to take note when u camp there, and you are supposed to hang it on your bag so that the rangers can check at night. Totally shiok and shuang when i got it =P Hahas.

Went with limin (should be spelt this way ba) and guanyu on sat, starting from the south kaibab trail head and all the way down to the bottom of the canyon. We took about 1.5 hours to hike from the trail head to cedar ridge and then to skeleton point (which was where i ended the last time), and took a break there. It was really different from the day hike coz we need to carry our hiking bags with food water and clothes, and the bags were so heavy as if they were pressing us down. What a burden on our shoulders =x It was a hassle to remove our bags and put them on again and hence we seldom stopped to take out our cameras for photo-taking. By the time we continue to descend from skeleton point to the river, it was already past 10am and the sun was getting hotter and hotter. The temp that day went all the way to 89F, which was like 40'C! It was advised not to hike from 10am to 3 pm coz it was the hottest time of the day and we can get easily dehydrated at such a high altitude. But we had no choice coz we need to reach the phantom ranch at the river fast so as to leave enough time to hike up to our campsite before sunset.

It was horrible coz no matter how long we walked we just couldnt see the bridge, which we were supposed to cross before we reach the river, and as the sun became hotter we can really the energy draining away just standing on the spot =x After walking for another 2 plus hours, we finally saw the bridge, from a distance, and we were a little relieved. But it was quite tormenting coz you see the bridge just in front of your eyes but yet you have to walk rounds and rounds around bends just to get down there. But still, every bend you walk you see the bridge getting closer to you and it just feels great =)

By the time we got to the Black Bridge it was already 1 plus pm, totally scorching, and we were so worn out we had to take a break inside the tunnel (leading to the bridge head) for some time before we could cross it. The bridge was very very nice (a suspension bridge!!) and as you stood on it, u can see and hear the river water gushing past and shimmering under the bright sunlight =) Like crystals!! There was even a mini beach below the end of the bridge, sort of a stop point for the people doing smooth water rafting. Reallt smal though.

After that we crosses the bridge and got to the Bright Angel campsite (which was not our campsite), before making our way to the Phantom Ranch, which was like a mini rest area with dorms and rest houses and a small cafeteria. Phantom Ranch was located right at the bottom of the canyon and it was the final destination for the people taking mule rides down and up the canyon, also for hikers hiking down. It was right beside the colorado river and you can have a grand view of the river close up. By the time we reach the canteen we were totally shagged and all we want to do was to sit down and rest our poor legs. There were packed lunches there but only for people taking the mule ride and for those staying in the rest houses. Nevertheless we could still grab an ice-cold lemonade which was like the most wonderful drink in the world at that point of time =P. They also sell two kinds of T-shirts, which can only be found there at phantom ranch, and not up at the south rim, which means you can only buy it when you hike all the way down to the ranch. Quite ex, but still i bought it. Boon bought me one when he hiked down the last time, so i bought the other one =)

By the time we decided we can continue to hike up. it was already close to 4pm. Our plan was to hike all the way down to the phantom ranch and half way up to Indian Gardens on the 1st day, rest for the night at the campsite, then ascend up on the 2nd day. There were 2 campsites, one at the ranch called Bright Angel campsite, and the other one was the Indian Gargen campsite. Initially i wanted to book the Bright Angel campsite so that we can take a rest right after we reach the river, but if we did so, we have to hike about 10 miles all the way up on the 2nd day morning, which was very tedious. So i booked the Indian Gardens campsite instead, which means we will finish about 3/4 of our hike on the 1st day, so that the next morning we only have to hike about 5 plus miles up. Also, we planned to reach Indian Gardens at about 7pm on the 1st say so we can continue to walk to Plateau Point (a separate route) from Indian Gardens to watch sunset.

By the time we reach Phantom Ranch we have already walked about more than 13miles
(1 mile= 1.6km) and we quite tired. Although we were about 2 hours behind time, we still decided to walk to the river to soak our feet before continue to ascend up Indian Gardens from the ranch. It was amazing coz the sun was super hot, about 40'C but the water was freezing cold!! Our legs were numb straight away when we stepped into the river. It felt really great coz you finally got to have a feel of the water from the colorado water after staying in on the top of the canyon for more than a month, and all these was achieved by your feet alone!! =)

We crossed the 2nd bridge, Silver Bridge which led us to the Bright Angel trail from the ranch. The thought that we still have to hike 5 miles up when we were almost half dead was quite tormenting, but we knew we had to do it in order to reach our campsite before it turns dark. A lot of people have been telling me that they were afraid to go go hiking coz they are scared that they cant hike up, and i always tell them they will definitely be able to do so, since there's only one way to leave the bottom of the canyon, which is to hike up!! Unless you want to stay at the bottm forever..hahas..=p

And no matter how unsure you are, once you start to hike up, u will naturally move towards your goal, coz theres no turning back =P As the sun was setting, it was really hot when we embarked on the river trail, before we reached the Devils Corkscrew, which was this extremely winding path with about 5 bends and extending all the way up to half of the height of the canyon cliffs, which means you need to walk constantly up for about an hour on this very steep road under the hot sun with our heavy hiking bags. Really devilish. Exhausting. By the time we passed the corkscrew the sun was already setting and it got a bit cooler. Still, there was no sign of the Indian Garden and we just have to continue walking. On the way, we saw a mountain goat charging all the way down the steep cliff, as if it was about to kill itself..=x Amazing though.. Later we met this women who said that we were only 3/4 miles away from the Indian Garden, whom we later discovered to be a cheater coz we obviously walked closed to 2 miles from the point we met her to the Indian Gardens.

When we finally reached the Indian Gardens we were almost dead, and totally exhausted, and since it was already close to 8pm, we couldny make it in time for sunset coz we had no energy to walk another 1.5 miles to Plateau point from there. So we decided to hunt for our campsite instead before it turns dark. The campground had many sheltered huts with picnic tables below them, and each comes with a piece of open area where people pitched their tents. We didnt bring tents so we just lay our sleeping bags on a mat. It was so nice coz when we lie down on our sleeping bags, the entire night sky was filled with bright stars, and it was right above our eyes!!! There was no light in the campsite so the stars were exceptionally bright and beautiful =)

We cooked instant noodles and milk tea using the camping stoves, containers and solid fuel we brought and it was really interesting =) But the light from the torches invited moths and flies and we had to scoop out all these insects from our soup every 5 minutes or so..hahas. Soon after that we changed out of our dusted clothes and tried to make ourselves more comfortable using the powder bath..hahas =p Didnt really sleep much coz my legs suffered from cramps from the walk and i kept hearing footsteps above my head, which was weird =X But still, i enjoyed being embraced by the sounds of nature and i really like the evening air =)

The next morning we cooked milo and cereal and ate the bread that we brought, which was good coz we wanted to empty all our food stock so that our bags could be lighter on the way up. After that we went to Plateau Point to enjoy the beautiful view of the river, before we hiked back up. Plateau Point was indeed the most beautiful point in the canyon coz you can have a full view of the river without any obstructions and you can sit on this cliff with your legs dangling in the air while the morning breeze blew away your exhaustion and sorrows =) It was pretty hot though coz it was a plateau and you have to walk for 45 mins without any shelter and trees in order to reach there..

When we finally start to hike up it was already about 12pm, coz we met another friend on the way back from plateau point and she wanted to hike up together with us. Hence we spent some time waiting for her at the Indian Gardens. It was again the hottest time of the day and by the time we start to ascend we have already walked more than 20 miles in total!!! Again we felt the torment of having to walk up when we were really starting to doubt the ability of our legs to carry us further =x We had to stop a few times in between each resting point (there were 3 in total) coz our legs were starting to cramp really bad. But we were quite lucky though coz there were a lot of clouds in the sky and most of the time the sun was covered up, so it was not very hot even at noon time.

We took a total of about 4 hours to hike back up, which was quite surprising to me coz i took about 5 hours the 1st time i hiked the Bright Angel trail!! And by the time i saw the Kolb house, which was at the end of the trail, i was so relieved =)

We hiked a total of about 30 miles, which was about 48km!! Cant believe i actually completed the whole thing (i thought i will be dead by the time i reach the river =P )..hahas

Nevertheless, it was a great experience and definitely a worthwhile one =) Everything really paid off when we stepped into the waters of the colorado river =)

It is all in the mind. I strongly believe =)

2008-06-21T12:37:00.002+08:00

To Sky:

知足 -- 五月天

怎么去拥有一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱一夏天的风
天上的星星笑地上的人
总是不能懂不能觉得足够

如果爱上上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐不是为我
会不会放手其实才是拥有

当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动
终于你身影消失在人海尽头
才发现笑着哭最痛

那天你和我那个山丘
那样的唱着那一年的歌
那样的回忆那么足够
足够我天天都品尝着寂寞

如果你快乐再不是为我
知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛

2008-06-14T08:17:00.000+08:00

张开双手去拥抱

你会发现得到的更多

2008-06-10T12:56:00.002+08:00

Went to flagstaff with a good friend named joshua yesterday, actually i just went to flagstaff (the nearest town from the canyon) on friday, but it was sort of rush =p

On friday we booked a trip to flagstaff specially for xanterra employees, at a discounted rate of

$13. We set off at about 2pm and reached the flagstaff mall at about 330pm. It was quite small actually, like one level of Raffles Place with limited shops and some places to eat. There was this pyramid of candy machines that you can buy candies from. You just need to put in 25cents and a candy will drop out. I tried the super sour candy, it wasnt very sour at 1st but as the candy melted in my mouth, the sour taste slowly diffuses out..=x

After that we went across the street to this row of stores and they have this really big shoe shop with like thousands and thousands of pairs of shoes and they all look different!! But too bad i didnt like any of those and i ended up buying nothing..but later we went to this store called Old Navy which sold clothes similar to that in GAP. Bought a really nice shirt there which cost abt US24.50.

Later we went to Ross, which was this very big departmental store with lots of good clothes and they were super cheap!! I guess being stuck in the canyon for close to a month without much to do really make people go crazy when they go shopping. And during my stay here i keep thinking of kbox almost everyday..i wonder if there are any nice songs coming up??

Soon after Ross we went to this super duper nice mandarin buffet with almost anything you can imagine, mongolia bbq beef, sushi, mostly chinese dishes, which really gave us a break from all the burgers and pastas..=)

Following which we went to downtown williams to tour around, it was already night time and everywhere was bustling with activity. Ww saw this singer in the display window of a shop, together with a celloist. The shop was pretty small but everyone stopped by to listen to her (i think she looks lkme amelie!!). There were also some galleries and gift shops selling handmade stuff and most of the restaurants there sold mexican food..

Finally we went to walmart to grab our electric kettles after almost a month and also some other groceries, before returning back to the canyon. On the way back i looked out of the windows and the stars were so bright! And they were so near i feel that i can touch one if i stretch out my hand..

Indulgence =)

2008-06-06T10:43:00.002+08:00

After writing days of emo stuff, i shall make a change to this blog that seems to be surrounded by dark clouds..

Work has been ok lately, but it's really painful every morning because i need to walk all the way from my dorm to the cafeteria and i need to cross 3 railways in the freezing wind. Despite being here for 3 weeks already, im still not quite used to the vast difference in temperature between day and night. In the morning and after sunset it was really freezing, such that you still feel cold in 3 layers of clothing, and at noon time you feel hot just wearing one thin T-shirt..

Last saturday i decided that i have had enough of western food and i made a trip to the one and only market place in the canyon, something like a supermart, but with super expensive veggies and stuff..i guess it takes much more time to transport food up here and all that extra cost goes to shipping etc..

Thought of the recipe when i was stuffing myself with pancakes in the morning..Made sweet and sour chicken, black pepper (or bbq) beef, fried eggs and tomato and egg soup.not too bad =)

Shall continue to think of more interesting and yummy recipes =)

yay =)

2008-06-06T10:34:00.002+08:00

我用双手挖了个洞

让自己跌入周而复始的深渊

想抓住最后一根稻草

却只看到虚无缥缈的空虚

2008-06-01T03:27:00.003+08:00

Surprisingly, two weeks have already passed eversince i stepped onto this quiet and massive land..living in the canyon is like being isolated from the rest of the world..despite getting information from newspapers and guides about how high above sea level we are, i just cant seem to feel it until the day i hiked closed to the bottom of the canyon..when i looked back (and up), the cliffs really seem to be hovering above me, and enclosing..

I remember complaining about the network and connections, but deep inside me, i know im actually quite grateful. Being forced to stay away from handphones and net and stuff really threw me back to the basics..Our dorm and the guy's dorm are about 7mins walk away, across a railway. When we just reached this place 2 weeks ago, we were still complaining about the troubles of not being able to contact each other, but by the end of the 2nd week, we bought two stick-on packs and crayons etc and pasted on each of our doors..so we can actually leave notes on each other's doors when in need..i like to write messages, as much as receiving them. When you are exhausted from work, or just cant find anything to fill up your time, and you find a message on your door saying that there's a movie session or dinner at night, a tiny part of your heart and soul just brightens up a little somehow..=)

Without all the high-tech stuff, we have no choice but to travel to and fro the two dorms to communicate with each other, face to face, and i can feel that it actually pulled our hearts closer..which is good! sometimes we rely so much on tech that we forget that the fastest and most efficient way to communicate our ideas to another person is to talk right in front of them..

It feels great to be embraced by the after-glow of sunset, cooking and eating beside the old railways, or even shivering under the bright stars in pitch darkness at night..serenity i would say..

Being away from home and your familiar friends also results in people getting more bonded to the ones they stay and interact with most of the time..Eating, travelling, chatting with the same group of people over time naturally draws everyone closer, and we are already inside each other's circle of life without noticing..sometimes you don't even realize that you are putting too much attention on one or two people, which results in some tiny and insignificant things being magnified..and moving at a speed beyond control..

Life is simple, and yet so complicated.